Depression/ anxiety one shots

Safe ( tw ⚠️ sh/ suicidal ideation)

" Hey." I said my voice breaking from heavily crying as my girlfriend picked up the phone.

" What's wrong baby? You sound upset." She asked her voice softer than usual

" I'm, I'm sorry this is hard." I said.

" It's okay, just tell me when you're ready. I'm won't be mad." She said comfortingly.

" It's not that I think I'll make you mad. I think you'll be scared and sad, and I really don't want to do that to you." I said. " But I know you'd be worse off if I didn't tell you so..."

" Baby please just tell me." She said and I could hear the shake in her voice.

" I, um, I really want to cut, um and not like, like normal. I want it to end." I said through choked out tears.

" Oh god baby, where are you right now, are you safe?" She asked and I could hear key's jingling in the background.

" No." I said. " I'm on the floor in the bathroom and um, it's in my hand. I was going to just do it, but I couldn't help but think about how hurt you'd be. I'm so sorry."

" Okay, okay. I'm on my way right now. I'm just a few blocks down at the library. Can you do something for me love? Please put the knife in the shower and close the curtain so you can't see it, can you do that?" She said.

" Um okay." I said and I did as she asked. " Done."

" Good. Good girl. Now do you think you can leave the room?" She asked and I could hear her trying not to break into tears.

I sat on the floor shaking and knew there was no way I was moving from the room on my own. " I can't. I'm sorry." I said.

" Okay, that's okay. Just don't move until I get there then, okay. I'm right down the street."

"Okay." I said and a few minutes later I heard her rush through the front door.

She swung the bathroom door open and saw me curled into a shaky crying mess in the corner.

" Oh baby." She said and rushed up to me, squatting down and pulling me into her arms.

As I sobbed into her arms she began to cry as well as she attempted to soothe me.

We stayed like that until my sobs became gentle cries and hers subsided entirely.

She gently pulled away from me and put her hands on my shoulders.

" Baby. You didn't do anything to hurt yourself did you?" She asked as softly as she could.

I shook my head no. " I can show you if you want." I said.

" No it's alright love, I believe you. Let's get you to the bed how does that sound?" She said.

" Okay." I said quietly and she helped me to my feet before picking me up and carrying me down the hall to the bedroom.

She set me down gently on the bed and I was still visibly shaky as she sat down across from me and grabbed my hands squeezing them a little.

" Sweetie, I'm here for you. I love you. Do you want to talk to me, tell me what happened?" She asked.

" Nothing happened necessarily, I just, I can't do this anymore. I'm in so much pain and I just I can't, I'm sorry." I said as my crying picked up again.

" Don't be sorry, it's okay. I understand and I'm going to do what I can to get you some help okay. But for now just lay on me and cry it out. I'm gonna keep you safe alright." She said and gestured for me to lay on her chest so I did.

She played with my hair as I cried and once she thought I was I asleep I could hear her quiet sobs that she muffled by putting a hand over her mouth.

I quickly sat up and looked into sad eyes and wiped the tears off her face.

" I'm sorry baby. I didn't mean to wake you." She said.

" You didn't. I'm the one who should be sorry. I'm sorry that you have to deal with this. I know it's not easy and that you're scared, but that's why I called you today baby. I'm going to continue to fight off the urges and the thoughts because I love you and I don't want to leave you." I said.

" That's all I could ask from you, just to not give up. Thank you so much for calling me. Let me help you get to sleep for real this time now okay. You need rest." She said.

" Let's just cuddle, you need sleep too." I said and she nodded as we got comfortable in each others arms before eventually drifting off to sleep.