Depression/ anxiety one shots

You're not mad ? ( depression sh ⚠️warning)

I sat on the bathroom floor crying while making the usual marks into my skin. The floor was a mess . I was a mess , inside and out . I was about to go at it again when I heard the front door open .

" Babe I'm home ! I bought some fish for dinner !" Tyler , my boyfriend, yelled from the kitchen.

I quickly locked the bathroom door and composed myself enough to say, " Just gimme a minute babe, I'm in the bathroom."

" Okay!" He yelled back while unloading the groceries he bought.

I quickly stashed the blade in its hiding spot and began to clean up the tile . As I got the last spot off the floor , Tyler knocked on the door.

" Hey baby, you okay? You've been in there awhile ." He said .

" Yeah I'm fine." I said but my voice fell a little.

" No you're not baby, I can hear it in your voice . What's wrong love?" Tyler asked .

" Nothing just go away ." I said kind of defensively.

I heard him walk away but a minute later he came back and the door's lock clicked open . He swung open the door and his mouth fell open.

" Don't move." He said without inflection in his voice .

He walked away and I began to cry . I just knew he was angry with me . I hated making people mad.

He came back in with a first aid kit and sat next to me .

" I'm sor...". I tried to say when he cut me off .

" No babe , don't say you're sorry ." He said still with a monotone voice.

He was opening up the kit as I asked , " You're mad at me aren't you?"

He paused what he was doing and took my hands into his .

" Absolutely not . I would never ever be mad at you for this , understand? Am I sad you're hurting, of course , but mad , never . And I don't want you saying sorry because you didn't do anything wrong . You're in pain and that's not something you ever have to apologize for . I love you so much honey and I'm always here for you without judgement or anger . Can I get you cleaned up now ?" He said.

I smiled slightly from his words for a quick moment and then nodded .

He took a disinfectant wipe and went over the cuts . I winced and he grabbed my hand , squeezing it gently.

He said, " You're doing great love , I know it hurts but we gotta keep them clean okay ."

I nodded again and he began to apply to antiseptic cream and bandages. Once he got me all cleaned and bandaged , he stood me up .

Looking into my eyes he said , " Baby I know this isn't what you want to here, but I need you to give me what you used."

I shook my head and lowered it feeling like a freak and embarrassed.

He lifted my chin back up and said," I know you don't want to give it to me but you have to baby. There's better ways and I'm going to help you find them . I will keep you safe babe , even if it's from yourself."

" In that drawer." I said and pointed to where I hid it .

He took it out and flushed it down the toilet. He led me out of the bathroom and onto the bed . I began to cry again and he wrapped himself around me letting me cry all over his shirt . I eventually fell asleep like that and he moved me under the covers.!