Depression/ anxiety one shots

The alternative ⚠️tw sh urges/talk of it

I took out my phone and tried reassuring myself that she wouldn't be annoyed with me for calling. A few minutes later I finally got up the courage and hit call on her contact. It rang a few times before she picked up.

" Hey babe I'm at the grocery store, what's up? Want anything?" She asked.

" Sariah." I said dully.

" Woah, what's wrong love?" She asked nervously.

" I'm so tired. I feel like I haven't truly been here in weeks and I just can't take the nothingness anymore." I said still in a flat tone.

" What are you trying to say?" She asked. " You're scaring me Luisa."

I could hear her trying to put things back on the shelf from her cart, as if she was gonna leave the store.

" I just need to feel again. I want to so badly Sariah. I feel like there's no other way, but I know that last time you said to call you before, so I'm calling." I said.

" Okay, okay. Oh you have no idea how much that means to me baby. I'm gonna leave right now and I'll be at your place in under ten minutes, just, wait for me in the living room okay?" She told me anxiously.

" Okay." I said and she went to respond but my phone died.

I went to search my messy room for a charger and by the time I found the one I had lost a day earlier my door was being unlocked. Sariah has a key.

" Isa! Where are you?" She yelled my nickname and was running to the bathroom frantically when I left my room to meet her in the living room.

" I'm here." I said.

She heard me and ran up to me wrapping her arms around me and pulling me in tightly. It only lasted a second before she pulled away panicked and stepped back to grab my arms and turn them over to check. When she saw nothing she rambled out, " Pants, please take them off, I have to make sure."

I obliged, having no issue with her requests because I understood. I'd do the same thing if I had been in her position, and I saw how much anxiety I was causing her and wanted to ease that.

As soon as my pants hit the floor she was checking up and down my legs and made me turn around too.

She seemed satisfied for a moment before she fearfully asked, " Would you have done it anywhere else Isa? Please, I need to know."

I didn't say anything, but instead took of my shirt leaving myself in just my underwear and a sports bra.

" No." I said and turned around to prove it to her.

She hugged me again. "I'm sorry. Thank you for that though. It really helps reassure my mind, but now it's my turn to help you. Let's get these back on." She said and reached down to pull up my pants for me and re-buckle them while I put my shirt back on.

She sat on the couch and motioned for me to sit by her.

" Talking won't help huh?" She asked.

" Probably not." I answered truthfully.

" Okay." She said and stood up grabbing my hand. " Let's try something else then."

She led me to my bathroom, put on my favorite playlist on her phone, and turned on the shower to a middle temperature, the colder side of lukewarm.

I took my shirt off again thinking she was telling me to take a shower.

" Stop." She said as I went to unbuckle my pants again.

" Cmon." She said, smiled, and stepped into the shower fully clothed.

I let her drag me in and she was already sopping wet as I felt the water start to hit me.

" Why are we doing this?" I asked skeptically.

" Shh no questions , just feel." She said as she pulled me closer and put her hands around my neck, and so I put mine around her waist and welcomed her closeness as I was then getting soaked as well.

She began to gently sway back and forth to the music so I moved with her, trying to just feel. She took a hand off of me and used it to tuck a piece of my wet hair behind my ear, as it was getting in my face.

She stopped and stared into my eyes silently, as the water loudly pelted the shiny white walls and floor.

I went to speak but she beat me to it. " I love you more than anything on the face of this planet Luisa, and I'm always going to be here for you. I'm so proud of you for asking for help, whether that was for my benefit or your own, you still did it, and there's no one else I'd want to have as my shower dance partner. I don't know how to make everything better but I'll always try because I'll never give up on you my baby, never."

I felt a tear form in my eye and roll down my check to join the other water droplets that had gathered on my neck.

" You are my planet." I said back and she began to cry.

I pulled her in tighter than before and messed my fingers through her hair as she layed her head on my shoulder.

" I got you baby, and I love you too, so much." I said. " Thank you for everything."

We stayed like that maybe another 5 or so minutes before we decided to get out. We stuck our wet clothes in the dryer and changed into a couple of my oversized shirts and underwear before cuddling together in my bed and watching a movie.

Sorry I've been so busy folks. This is my finals week and I've been stressed but hope you enjoy this one and for legal reasons please don't dance in the shower, that's dangerous