Depression/ anxiety one shots

Secret ⚠️ Self harm tw

" Take it off right now." He said sternly and I just stared back at him frozen in fear.

" Did you hear what I just said Shaya ? I said TAKE IT OFF !" Alex yelled.

Alex's pov : earlier that day

"I'm taking my 15!" I yelled to my boss at the restaurant I work at.

" Hey Kay. What's up ?" I said confused as to why my sister's best friend was calling me , especially when I was at work.

" Um , Alex , Shaya would kill me for this , and she probably won't even want to be my friend anymore after I tell you , but there's something you need to know . I can't keep it a secret anymore, it's eating away at me." She said breathing heavy and there was sheer panic in her voice .

" Breathe Kay, breathe . What's wrong ? You can talk to me . Go slow." I said trying to keep her calm but secretly getting very worried.

" Okay , um , so a couple weeks ago I saw something on Shaya's arm when she took off her jacket . I , I asked her about it and she broke down and told me everything, but begged me to keep it a secret. Alex , Shaya self - harms , and I don't think she's been okay for a very long time ." She said .

I stood in shock and didn't say anything back , so Kay spoke again.

" I'm so sorry Alex . I know I should've said something sooner, I was just so scared she'd never want to talk to me again. I tried to help , I did , but she turned me away , again and again. Also she had a rough day today at school and I offered to come over and stuff and she said no , so maybe , I don't know, check on her ." She said very out of breath.

I gathered myself and said , " Okay . Thanks Kay , don't feel bad okay , you were right to tell me. I gotta go now though . Bye."

I hung up and told my boss I was leaving because I had a family emergency .

Shaya pov :

I had a terrible day at school. All I wanted to do was get that relief I always get from the blade, so I went in the bathroom and got it out . I slid it over my forearm a few times and then on my thigh another few times . I let it bleed for a bit until it just about stopped and then used a paper towel to wipe the rest off of me. I put the blade back in my makeup bag , tossed the paper towel and was done. Putting a clean pair of sweatpants and a hoodie on, I left the bathroom for the living room. I went to go sit on the couch but before I even had the chance my brother Alex stormed through the door .

With angry eyes he said , " It's kinda hot in here huh? Why don't you take that hoodie off ?"

" No , I'm actually comfortable at the moment." I said chuckling to try and make myself look less uncomfortable.

" Nah I think you should take it off right now." He said getting more and more angry.

I shook my head no.

" Take it off right now." He said sternly and I just stared back at him frozen in fear .

" Did you hear what I just said Shaya? I said TAKE IT OFF!" Alex yelled.

I started to cry but his face didn't soften at all.

" You have five seconds to do it before I do it for you ." He said very seriously.

I shook my head again and tried to make a run for it but he stopped me by grabbing my arm making me wince in pain , which he took note of.

" Fine . If this is the way you want to do it." He said and practically ripped my hoodie off of me .

I tried to hide my arms but he held tight on them and turned them to see all my scars along with my fresh cuts. I thought he was about to go off on me but then I could see his entire demeanor change and he just looked so sad and so full of pity. He unexpectedly pulled me into his chest , hugging me tighter than he ever had before .

" Sweetheart, let's sit down and talk okay . Can we do that?" He said softer than before .

I nodded and he led me to the couch where we both sat.

" I have so many questions. Why, for how long , how didn't I see this ?" He asked .

" Um, I'm just depressed, I don't have another reason to be honest. It's been a couple years , and um , you didn't see because I didn't want you to ." I said still crying .

" Oh hunny I'm so so sorry I wasn't there for you , but I'm here now and I'm not going to let you hurt yourself anymore. Is this the only spot?" He asked gesturing to my arm .

I shook my head no .

" Can you show me please?" He asked grabbing hold of both my hands.

I nodded and pulled my sweat down a little so he could see. The ones on my thighs were definitely worse . I saw his face somehow get even sadder and his eyes became glossy .

" Oh Shaya. Was this today ?" He asked and his voice sunk .

" Yes." I said softly , and said the ones on my arm were too.

" Lay down and I'll be back with stuff to clean these okay ."  He said .

I fell asleep while he was cleaning and dressing my thigh because all the tears made me exhausted and I woke up a few hours later with a blanket on me and my arm and thigh bandaged .

He was gonna help me , I just knew he was, and it was with that thought that I went back to sleep.

PSA - To people who don't sh , first that's good , please don't start. It literally only makes things worse . Second , if you find out someone you know self harms please do not react that way no matter how upset you are . Yelling doesn't help anything . Anyway, that's all. Hope you guys found this one okay 👍 lots of love 💕