Depression/ anxiety one shots

Let me be there for you twsh ⚠️

* This one's for my older siblings cause y'all need care too *

Me and my younger sibling, we're almost 3 years apart. I'm 25 now and they are 23. I was sort of their parental figure growing up. I had to be. My dad had left and my mom just didn't wanna be one. When they were still in elementary school and I was in middle school, I began self harming to cope, but after a year I knew I had to stop. I had to be there for them.

I held myself together until after they graduated high school and then I began to sink again. I relapsed at 21 and ever since the most I can get clean is a couple months before I relapse again. Kash still knew nothing of it, until just last week.

"Hey Juniper." Kash said to me when I got home. We still lived together, we moved out into our own place when they turned 18.

" Hey Kash?" I said just as suspiciously as they had said my name.

" I need to talk to you about something." They said and motioned for me to sit on the couch across from them.

" Okay, what's up?" I said sitting down.

" Juniper. I know you cut yourself." They said trying to come across soft and caring rather than accusatory.

I instantly put my head in my hands and begun sobbing. I never wanted them to know, I never wanted them to have to deal with me and my shit, that wasn't their job.

Kash got up and sat by me and rubbed my back in circles to try to calm me

" Hey, I know you feel like you can't because you basically raised me, but you can come to me. I'm your sibling not your kid, I'm here for you to lean on and put your problems on." They said.

" How do you know?" I mustered out.

" I saw the blood stains on your shirt when I did laundry the other day." They said.

" I'm sorry. I really am." I said.

" It's completely okay Juni, you don't need to apologize but if you feel comfortable sharing, please talk to me. What's happening?" They asked.

" I'm fine Kash. Really, it was just a relapse, I'll be fine." I said and choked on my own words once I realized what I had said.

" This is a relapse?" Cash said hurt. " When did this start Juniper?"

I sat sad and prepared myself for their reaction. " I started in middle school, did it for a year and stopped until a few years ago and I've been off and on since with it." I said.

" Woah." They said. " Well what's in the past is in the past, what matters now is helping you and I'm here to do that okay?"

" Okay." I said and started crying harder.

They pulled me into a huge hug and while we still hugging they softly said, " Juni, can you please show me. I'm worried that they are going to get infected."

They are going to medical school so I understood their concern.

" Okay." I said and took my sweater off showing them my arms.

They checked out all my newer cuts and once they were satisfied, told me I could put my sweater back on.

" What can I do to help you? Kash asked me as they were making dinner.

" Just don't judge me or treat me like I'm fragile please. That's all I could ask." I said.

" Of course, I would never. Anyway, here's dinner. I love you. Thank you for always being there for me and let's toast to you letting me be there for you now." They said setting a dinner plate in front of me and their own spot, and brought in some beers that we clanked.

" Cheers". I said.