Depression/ anxiety one shots

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" I need to tell you something." I told my girlfriend suddenly as she was driving us home from the movies.

"What's going on?" She said concerned and I could sense her anxiety picking up.

" It's okay Kora." I said and grabbed her hand that was on her lap and held it.

She took some deep breaths and was calmer after.

" Okay, I'm sorry about that, so talk to me." She said and turned the ac down to hear me better.

" It's totally okay, and I just wanted to tell you this before you found out on your own, and I'm okay now, but I relapsed the other day. I'm sorry." I said straight forward.

" Oh sweetheart." She said squeezing my hand more.

" It's okay if you don't know what to say. I know this is the first time this has happened since we've been together." I said noticing her hesitation in saying more. She knew about my self harm, but I was clean from when I met her until my relapse.

" Okay, I just want to support you and not make things worse. Can I ask questions?" She asked.

" Yes of course. You can ask anything." I said.

" Okay. Um, where and how, how badly?" She asked.

" My arm, and not badly baby, don't worry okay." I said and I could sense her relief.

" Okay that's good, well not good, but, you know what I mean." She said and I nodded. " Why?" She asked.

" I wish there was a reason." I said sadly. " I just felt like everything was so, just so much and I broke. I wish I could say it won't happen again but I can't promise you that. I can just promise I'll try not to."

" That's all I could ask love." She said and pulled the car into our driveway.

We got out and the first thing she did was pull me into a massive hug and kiss my head.

" I love you so much baby." She said.

" I love you too." I said and hugged her back tightly.

We got inside and sat next to each-other on the couch.

" Can I ask something else?" Kora said after a couple minutes of silence.

" Of course baby." I said.

" Did you like, take care of it afterwards?" She asked.

" Yes. I should probably change the bandage on it though." I said and got up to go to the bathroom to do just that, but she grabbed my arm and stopped me.

" Janey, can you let me do it please? Remember when you told me how you used to justify your self harm by doing " self care" after and bandaging yourself? I just don't want that to make you slip back into it again." She asked nervously, worried she had offended me.

" Yeah, you're right. I probably shouldn't be doing it. You can, thanks." I said.

She smiled a soft smile and followed me upstairs to the bathroom.

I took off my shirt and she saw the bandage on my shoulder. She took a paper towel and wet it before dabbing it over the tape that held the bandage on my arm, so that her taking it off wouldn't hurt so bad.

" Ready?" She asked.

" Yeah." I said. " It was nice, but also weird, no one had done this for me but myself, so I had mixed emotions.

She gently took the tape off and the bandage came off as a result.

She was staring at the cuts and I felt bad that she had to see them.

" I know." I said sadly.

" You know what?" She asked confused.

" That they make me so ugly." I said.

She turned me to the side and held my face in her hands.

" Janey. You are not ugly, your cuts don't make you ugly, neither do your scars. I wasn't staring because of that, I was just staring because I got lost in my own head thinking about how terrible you must've felt and I didn't help you." She said moving her hands to tuck my hair behind my ears.

" You couldn't have known." I said.

" I should've though. It's my job to take care of you. Could you please tell me if it happens again. I won't be mad, I just wanna be there for you." She asked.

" Yes." I said.

" Good, let's get a new bandage on you now okay." She said, and placed a new one over my arm after she put Neosporin on the cuts.

" Thank you." She said.

" For what?" I asked lost. " I'm the one who should thank you."

" For trusting me to support you." She said.

" How could I not? You're the most amazing and supportive girlfriend to ever exist. I love you so much much Kora."

" I love you so much much Janey." She said and kissed me.