Depression/ anxiety one shots

Just a bit sad

I started to notice things about her once we moved in together. I took note of the way she'd lie awake at night for hours and then sleep until eleven or twelve the next morning. On numerous occasions she'd "forget" to brush her teeth or take a shower and she'd occasionally tell me she wasn't hungry when I hadn't seen her eat at all that day.

I tried to bring it up with her but she'd always change the subject, and I let it slide until I couldn't anymore.

I came home that day and she was laying on the couch staring up at the ceiling, not even looking at me as I came inside.

" Hey baby I'm home, what's going on?" I asked worried.

" Yeah I'm fine." She replied, not answering my question which had me thinking she wasn't really listening.

" Lane, seriously what's wrong?" I asked as I walked up to her and knelt beside her.

She briefly looked at me and then diverted her gaze back to the ceiling.

" Sweetheart I'm really concerned right now. Did you take anything? Do I need to call an ambulance?" I asked taking deep breaths.

" No. I'm just not here right now. I need time." She said rather slowly.

" Okay, okay. What can I do?" I asked curious how I could possibly help.

" Nothing." She replied simply.

" Can I hold you at least? Until this passes?" I practically begged, because my concern was growing with each passing minute.

" Sure." She said flatly.

I layed beside her and wrapped my arms around her body as she stayed staring off into space. This lasted another hour or so until she spoke.

" Shoot." She said and turned to look into my eyes.

" Shoot?" I repeated back confused.

" Yeah, as in go for it. Ask whatever you want to." Lane explained.

" What's wrong baby? I've noticed how things have seemed hard for you lately." I asked gently.

" I'm just a little sad, I'm not sure why." She replied and shrugged her shoulders.

" Sweetheart this seems like more than just sadness, this seems like depression." I suggested. " Do you agree?"

" No I'm not depressed I'm fine." She said a bit defensively.

" Darling there's nothing embarrassing about having depression. I'm not judging. I'm just worried." I explained.

" Really I'm fine. Just been bummed out a bit lately, nothing more." She insisted.

"Okay if that's the case then that's the case, but I need to know, so can I ask you some questions?" I inquired.

" Fine." She answered clearly not wanting to have the conversation we were having.

" Are you having days where it's hard to get out of bed in the morning?" I asked. " Be honest with me baby."

" Maybe sometimes but that's normal." She responded.

" Okay, how have you felt about doing your hobbies lately? I haven't seen you paint in weeks and you hardly bake anymore too." I asked making notes of what I'd noticed.

" I think I'm just growing up more, like as you get older you have less desire to do hobbies am I right?" She suggested.

" No love, that's not the case at all. Your answers combined with my own observations really make me worried. I know you don't think you're depressed but how about doing an evaluation with a psychiatrist, it would ease my nerves." I told her hoping she'd agree.

" Fine, but I've been this way for years. It's not that big of a deal." She said sighing.

" Years?" I asked, shocked. " Why am I just now noticing then?"

" It's easy to hide if I feel I have to, but living with you, I feel safe." She explained.

" Well I'm glad you feel safe, but I'm still equally as worried. I need to ask you something and please dont get mad." I said and she nodded. " Have you ever had suicidal thoughts?"

She stayed silent for a moment before answering. " I guess so, I mean who hasn't though."

" That's serious love, and not normal whatsoever. Any of these thoughts been recent, as in the past week or so?" I questioned, trying to contain the anxiety I was getting.

" Yeah, but I'm not gonna act on them I swear. They're just there." She told me.

" Okay, well that makes me happy that you won't act on them, but you've definitely gotta see someone as soon as possible." I practically ordered.

" If that's what you want, I'll do it." She replied.

" I want you to feel good again Lane, whatever that takes, I'm here to figure it all out with you. Thank you for helping me help you." I said and kissed her.

" I love you." She said as she kissed me back.

" I love you too darling. I presume you haven't eaten today though so I'm gonna go cook you something now alright?" I said and got up.

" Grilled cheese?" She asked with a slight smile.

" One grilled cheese coming right up." I said and jokingly saluted her.