Depression/ anxiety one shots

I'll leave ⚠️sh

"I can't believe you lied about having a thing with my best friend!" My older brother Marcus yelled as he slammed the front door behind him.

" I'm sorry , I just didn't want to upset you ." I said in shock from the slamming of the door.

" Lila! You are so self centered! I hate you but I hate that you're my sister ever more ! Literally just leave , nobody loves you ." He said and he stomped up the stairs to his room.

At this point I was crying but I had to put that on hold because I got a phone call.

" Hey mom what's up?" I said trying to sound cheery.

" What's up young lady is that I have just been informed that you got a B in math. You have no idea how ashamed and embarrassed I was when your teacher called to tell me . He was " worried" or whatever because it's " unlike you" to not do extremely well, but obviously it is like you , because you got a B. I am so disappointed to have such a failure as a daughter. When I get home I'm taking your laptop, phone, and I'm making your father take off your door. Goodbye." My mom said and she hung up.

I've been going through some stuff the past 6 months or so with bullies and just my own personal messes , so this was my breaking point . I put my phone and charger into my purse with a little money I had saved up and walked out the door after tying a sweatshirt around my waist and putting on my shoes.

I began walking. When I got to the highway I decided to hitchhike. I know it's stupid and dangerous but I didn't even care . Luckily some kind older lady pulled off for me .

" You alright sweetheart?" She asked .

" Yes m'aam , I just needed a ride to the bus station. I accidentally took the bus too far and got lost , I'm just trying to get back home." I lied.

" Oh dear , well I'll take you , hop in." She said smiling.

The bus station was only about 15 miles away so we were there pretty shortly and she waved to me as I walked away . She really was nice , anyway , I bought a bus ticket to some town I've never even heard of and got on the bus .

Once I sat down , everything said to me hit me like a brick wall.

" You're a disappointment."

" I hate you!"

" Just leave."

" I'm ashamed of you"

" Nobody loves you."

And my head even fabricated some of my own.

They will be so happy to see you gone.

You are a burden to everybody

Why are you even alive

I was lost in my thoughts the rest of the ride , and after the two or so hours it took I was way past being alright.

Luckily the bus let me off near a bunch of stores . I went into one of them and found the razor section. I bought one and walked back outside looking for a place to release my pain.

Marcus' pov:

I still didn't understand how Lila thought what she did was okay. She knows my best friend is off limits because if things went sour between them I'd lose my friend. Still , I was a little too harsh on her. Saying nobody loves her was too much, and it was a lie too. I love my sister so much , she's all I really have. My parents are trash parents to be honest , they've never been there for Lila and I . I decided to go downstairs and apologize. I mean it had been like 3 hours , I wasn't that angry anymore.