Broken Promises

Ending is a new beginning

Y/N's POV

It's now June, it has been 2 weeks since my break up with Lizzie, Scarlett has going to the house and bringing my things to my mom's house, my mom hasn't tell me anything about my break up with Lizzie, she knows what she did but my mom doesn't say anything about Lizzie, Luca doesn't know, I don't want to tell him because he told me how much he loves Lizzie, I don't want to tell him that he won't see her again. Rose doesn't know about it either, I know I need to tell them but I just don't know how to tell them. In a few words almost no one knows about our break up

Scarlett has told me that Lizzie is still on that house, I really don't mind that she is on the house, if she wants to stay there she can do it, I really don't like the idea of live there because that house will just remind me the image of Lizzie and him. She also keeps asking Scarlett where I am, I told Scarlett not to tell her but I know that Lizzie knows where I am, I mean if I'm not with Scarlett of course I'm with my mom, but I will not be here for too long

I haven't slept well since that night, I get up in the middle of the night and find impossible to go back to sleep, so I have been going to the gym I didn't realized that I stop going, I spend like two or three hours there. I return before someone wakes up, I don't want them to know that I can't sleep, but I think they already know because of the bags under my eyes

The time I have been here with my mom, Guido hasn't appear I asked my mom and she told me she didn't know where he is, I really don't care but I see how much it affects my mom, at least Luca doesn't seem to care

Scarlett brought the things I had on the little winery and I found Leo's book, in this book he used to write songs, he refused to sing them and he used to beg me to sing them for him, we were a pretty good team, I noticed that in the book are songs that he never told me about, I wish I could sing them but he always helped me to put the beat on them, maybe one day I will try to do it

I didn't unpacked my things because I'm not moving here, I will find another place to stay but first I will go, I will go around the world and take pictures of it, I know I'm going to do it alone but I'm sure I will find people out there and maybe I will do more friends, I don't know when I will return but I now when I will go, I'm planning on going on June 10 I know is before my birthday and that's why my mom and Scarlett keep telling me that I should wait and leave after my birthday but I really don't want to be here on my birthday, I wanted to spend my birthday with Lizzie because it was going to be my first birthday with her, but everything is ruined, at least I will follow my dream but without the love of my life

Roger knows about Lizzie so he told me to take all the time I need, I know I left cases but I won't return to them, Roger told me that he will do the cases I left. I haven't forgive him but I talk now with him, we are progressing in a slow way but is ok. I have spent a lot of time with Luca which is amazing, but I know I will broke his heart when I tell him that I'm leaving and that Lizzie and I are not longer together

I was on the kitchen talking with my mom about my plans, she doesn't like the fact that I'm leaving and that I'm not telling anyone where I'm going I just told them that I will be traveling around the world. She said that what if something happens to me and they don't know where I am, that's why I bought a bracelet and there it has my mom's phone number. So if something happens they will call her, she is calmer about that

We are waiting for Scarlett to arrive because she and Rose are going to eat with us, Luca and I are watching the TV as my mom is cooking. "Y/N why hasn't Lizzie come to visit?" Why is he asking me this? What am I suppose to tell him? "I don't know what are you talking about" I told him and he looked at me confused "Tell me, are you and her angry with each other?" He asked and I threw him a cushion "Let me watch the movie, it's so interesting" I told him and he groans "You weren't even watching the movie, you were on your phone" he said and I looked at him "I will tell you later I promise" I told him and he sighed but nod