Broken Promises

Sometimes it's hard to get what we want

Y/N's POV

January 25

We will go to see the doctor today, Lizzie asked Paul's wife and of course, she recommended us her doctor and a couple of more. Lizzie decided to go with her doctor because she feels more comfortable and if I'm honest me too. We already agree that Lizzie will carry our baby, but we want to put my egg on Lizzie and search a sperm donor, which for me I think it's the most difficult part

I was with Bo waiting for Lizzie, she is nervous too but because I'm nervous too I don't really know how to calm her down so I let her to have space to think about all the things that will happen today. She walked toward us and she looks more calmed and relaxed she smile at us and I smile back "Hi love" I greeted her and she lean down to peck my lips "Hi baby, are you ready?" She asked me "Are you?" I asked her and she nods smiling "Do you feel better amor?" I asked her as I engulfed her in my arms "I do, do you?" She asked and I nod

We drove to the hospital and before getting out of the car I grabbed Lizzie's hand "Everything will be fine" I assured her and she nods smiling "Can I have a kiss?" She requested making me laugh but lean in for a kiss. We entered the hospital and now we are on the waiting room, they will see if they can extract eggs from me and insert them on Lizzie and then we also have to see the options of the sperm donors or if we have someone in mind that can donate sperm

My leg hasn't stop bouncing, I'm so nervous what if I can't give my eggs, what if they don't function well and because of my fault we lose our baby, what if they tell me I can't do it and I can't give Lizzie babies, I mean I know that if my eggs doesn't work then it will have to be with Lizzie's but I want it to be with my egg. Lizzie noticed my nervous so she squeezed my hand "Baby relax, everything will be fine" she said and I tried to smile not wanting to worry or make her nervous "Why are you so nervous bug? I'm always the nervous one" She asked me

I don't know if I should tell her I mean maybe she will be scared too and will regret this "Y/N, you can tell me everything please I want to help" she said and I nod sighing "What if I ruin everything and my eggs are not functioning well" I told her "Then we will do it with mine bug, don't worry" she said but I shook my head "What if they think they work and when we start all the procedures we lose the baby because of my fault" I told her "You are overthinking angel, we should not make assumptions just yet, we will see what the doctor say, and I will be there for you whatever it happens, and I'm sure you will be there for me too" she said, calming me down "I will" I told her and she smile "We are in this one together" she said "We are" I reassured her and she peck my lips

I feel calmer, maybe everything will go right, and I'm just attracting bad luck with my bad thoughts so I'm going to stop thinking about all the bad things that could happen. The doctor call us in and now we are here sitting in front of Dr. Allen, because we already spoke to her on the phone, and we explained her everything we want, we don't have to do that again "So I was thinking we start with you Y/N I want to make you some tests then move to check your eggs" she suggested us

I looked at Lizzie and she smile at me "Uh yeah sure" I responded I can't believe I am dying of nervous, most of the time I am not the nervous one, Lizzie is the nervous one, and now Lizzie seems so relaxed "Do you have any questions?" She asked us "Yeah when will we know if we can use my eggs" I asked her "I think in a week or maybe more than a week I will be calling you guys when I have the results, don't worry if it's more than a week" she said and we nod "When will you check me, I mean see if I can still have babies" Lizzie asks "We can check that part today too, but I don't see why wouldn't you be able did you have an accident that affected something there?" She asked

I know Lizzie is asking because of her age and I'm sure the doctor will tell her that she still can "Uhm no I uhm I'm asking because of my age" she said and the doctor hummed "Can you remind me how old are you?" She asked Lizzie "31, 32 in February" she responded "Oh dear you still can but we will make you some tests to be 100% sure" she said and Lizzie nods smiling "Are you younger than her?" She asked me and Lizzie nods "Can you remind me your age?" She asks me "I'm 27, 28 in June" I responded and they both laugh