Broken Promises

You are the one I'm going to marry

Y/N's POV

I had to use the pee excuse, I was feeling like I couldn't breathe, why is this happening? Why now? when Lizzie and I are finally getting the future we want, when we are finally engaged, when we are happy, why did he come back? for what?. Fuck, Lizzie must have a million of questions that I will have to answer, I have never told her about him, I know I should have told her, but it never came to my mind, I mean I thought I would never saw him again and Lizzie makes me happy she made me forgot about him

I was sitting on the grass with Bo by my side "What am I supposed to do?" I asked the little puppy that clearly knows something is bothering me. Minutes later Lizzie came up and sat next to me, she knew I needed a minute, she grabs my arm and put her head on my shoulder, I kissed her head and sighed "Do you want to know who is Jackson?" I asked her and she looked at me, I was already looking at her "Only if you want to tell me, I mean it's clearly that it upsets and I don't know confused you" she said and I nod, it confused me

I don't know if I should tell her, but I know I don't want to keep things from her, and well I should have told her this sooner, I just literally forgot or maybe my mind put the memories on the back and I just didn't give it so much importance "I think I want to tell you" I told her and she nods "Then I'm here" she said as she takes my hand and squeeze it "Let's go inside" I said and stood up, helping her to stand up too

We walked inside and walked to the couch, I sat with my legs crossed, facing her, because she did the same "Before I tell you I need you to promise me that you won't get mad, that you will let me explain and the most important thing that you will trust me" I told her and I can see that she is worried about what I am about to tell her "You are making me nervous baby" she confessed and I sighed "Jackson is one of my ex" I told her and her face relaxed a little "But not only that, he really was special for me you know, our love was epic, I don't know if it was because I was too young but he was very important to me, I thought I wanted everything with him, I thought he was the one for me" I explained her

Her face completely changed, she seems upset "I was wrong my love, I know that you are the one, believe me when I say I have never been this happy, yes he made me happy but with you I really learnt how love is suppose to be" I tried to reassure her and she nods slowly "Why you never told me about this?" She asked me clearly upset "I didn't think it was important I really forgot" I told her "How come you thought it wasn't important when you are here telling me that you loved him a lot, and you wanted to be with him for the rest of your life?" She said raising a little her voice "Lizzie I just-" I couldn't finish because she got a call and she answered it and walked away

Fuck, I don't want to have problems yeah Jackson is back but that doesn't mean he is going to stay, I mean he went to Germany, I'm sure he will go back there, this doesn't change anything, he doesn't change anything, he will not affect us. I walked inside the house and she is still talking, I think is something of work so I didn't disturb her and walked out and sat on the couch we have on the balcony, Bo is following me, I carry him and put him closer to me "I think mommy is really mad at me right now" I told him sighing and he looked at me with sad eyes, I don't want him to be sad but I can't control that, I don't feel so good to make him feel better

Minutes later Lizzie came "I was looking for you" she said and I was going to talk again but she stopped me as she sits next to me "I don't want to fight" she mumbled sighing "I don't want that either" I told her as I take her hand "This doesn't change anything right? I mean the fact that he is here" she said "Of course no, I don't care why he is here, when mom told me that he was here, it did affect me because it took me by surprise, but it doesn't change anything between us I promise" I assure her instantly and she sat on my lap and hugged me, kissing my head "I'm sorry if I raised my voice" she apologized