Broken Promises

You don't know what you have until you lose it

Lizzie's POV

I don't know how the paparazzi took those photos, I mean I'm always careful with them. Ugh this is all my fault I really lost the only woman I love the most and the only person who loved me unconditionally, I have hurt her plenty of times but this time I really broke her, I think she would never be able to forgive me

We started making reshoots for Avengers Endgame but I keep messing my lines, I can't take off the look Y/N had when she saw us. Why am I so stupid? Why did I do it?. My sisters are mad at me, I had to tell them because I thought they might help me but they didn't, even Clay told me how stupid I am. I will call them later and tell them all the truth no one knows but I hope they can give me an advice of what should I do and if I should tell Y/N

I went to visit Luca and he told me that Y/N was so far from home and that he is sad that she went away, I thought he was going to be angry with me, but he is not he is the opposite he still is the little guy I used to hang out with when Y/N brought him to the house. I guess Y/N didn't told him what I did. Her mom is not angry with me either, but she does know what I did but not why I did it, first I will tell to my sisters they always help me even if I fucked the things

On Y/N's birthday I really wanted to talk to her, I feel so bad for not being able to be with her on her birthday, I mean even if she would have been here I don't think she wouldn't have let me spend her birthday with her. The house feels so empty without her and all of her stuff, I really don't know why she didn't kick me out, I mean it was her house before I moved in with her, it is still her house, I guess it wouldn't be pleasant being on the same room where your girlfriend cheated on. I really think I should move back to my house, there is no point to be living in the house

Scarlett has been upset because Y/N hasn't called her since Y/N's birthday, she just have texted her. I feel guilty about it because it is kind of my fault, also when Scarlett found out that I had lunch with Robbie the same day I told her that I really wanted to talk to Y/N, she got super mad, she told me that I was a liar, the only thing that she doesn't know it is that I went to have lunch with him, because he wanted to apologize and to thanked me, he told me that it really was his fault because he pushed me so hard, to help him, but I know it's not his fault I let him kissed me, obviously if Robbie wouldn't have texted me and pushing me to help him this would have never happened but I agreed on helping him and now all is fucked and I lied to Y/N just because I got scared, maybe if I should have told her the truth she wouldn't be so mad and I know I need to tell her the truth but she will still be mad because I lied to her when she asked me not to lie

Then Robbie and I started hanging out again and there were photos of us hugging, of course I asked my manager to see the way those photos disappear from everywhere. They disappeared which is super good, but I am not sure if Y/N saw them or if someone saved the photos and can post them again. My life has been so fucked since Y/N left me, I can't sleep because I don't know if she already got over me, or if she would come back to me, I really wish I was with her

When I asked Scarlett where Y/N is, she told me that she doesn't know and that no one knows, she said that she knows just what everyone knows, that she went to follow her dream, of course when she said that I was so confused about it, what dream?

Flashback

"She went to follow her dream, I don't know how she was able to go I mean you were supposed to go with her, you were planning it together" Scarlett told me making me confused "What dream? What are you talking about?" I asked her confused, we never planned anything about a trip "Wait , she didn't tell you did she?" She said and I shook my head "She told me that she told you, and that the two of you were planning about it" Scarlett said and I sighed frustrated "Just tell me what dream?" I requested her and she nods