Broken Promises

No pain is forever

Y/N's POV

It has been 3 weeks since Lizzie and I kissed, I can't stop thinking about that kiss. When I kissed her I felt so good, comfortable and finally I felt happy, but then I pulled apart, after pulling apart I regret it, not the kiss of course I don't regret the kiss, I regret have moved away. The next day I told everything to Scarlett, I needed to talk it with someone and I couldn't talk with Emma because our appointment was until a week. Scarlett was happy but she teased me about how I wanted to have sex with Lizzie, then she asked me what I was going to do, but I couldn't answer, I don't know what I'm going to do next

I talked with Emma but as always she wants me to find the answers of my own questions and to find the answers of her questions, I wish someone would just give me the answers, but I know that I need to know what I feel about Lizzie and how will I feel if in a future we come back

I haven't seen her which is better I think, because I need to clear my mind and if I see her I might not think clearly. She is trying to reach me out, but I refused, Scarlett told me that Lizzie thinks I regret the kiss and that I don't want to talk with her again, I didn't tell Scarlett that it wasn't true so I don't know if Scarlett told her something. If I'm honest I do want to see her, I'm just afraid of letting her in again, and that she will break my heart

Lately I have been working again, I'm not going to the Law Firm, but I have been helping Roger with some of the cases, I know I told him I was going to take time off the work but I get so bored sometimes and I didn't have anything to do, so I sometimes help with some cases, is better that getting bored in my house. Also I don't feel stressed or pressured with work because I am not going everyday to work, I just go when I want or when someone needs my help

If I'm honest I want to see Lizzie, I know I just could call her but my proud is too big, I can't accept that she was right and that I want her just as much as she wants me, or maybe I want her more, I mean you can't blame she is the most beautiful, perfect, amazing human being in the whole universe, I don't even know why she is into me I mean she deserves better

I have nothing to do so I decided to go and hang out with Scarlett it's so funny to annoy her so that will keep me busy. I arrived at her house and I did knock because she goes all intense when I don't knock. She opened the door and I smile at her "Hi!" I told her excited "What's wrong with your ass? Why are you smiling like a creep" she said and I drop my smile "You are rude" I told her as I get into her house "What are you doing here?" She asked "I was bored I have nothing to do so I came here" I told her shrugging "So you are here because you didn't have anything else to do, why is that my fault?" She asked "Bitch you love me and you know it" I told her

We decided to watch a movie as we wait for Rosie to get out of the school. As we were watching a movie I got a call from Ashley, I suppose MK is with her, those two are always together, I mean Leo and I used to be together too, anyways we haven't talk since Rose's birthday I don't know why are thy calling me. Weird, I hope they don't know about the kiss with Lizzie, I mean I think they have to know because Lizzie is their sister she must have told them

Me: Hey what's up?

A: You promised you were going to keep in touch with us

MK: And it seems we are no longer important to you just because you are no longer with our sister

Me: I'm sorry guys I uh no I don't have any excuse

A: You were trying to made an excuse

Me: Yeah I'm sorry again, but hey I should be mad at the two of us

MK: Why? We haven't done anything

Me: Oh guys I am not that dumb I'm sure you were the ones who talked with the CEO of the darling magazine which is also the magazine you sister was going to be in