Broken Promises

Fucking birthday

Y/N's POV

Stefania woke me up, because she bought me a beautiful breakfast and a little cupcake, I really appreciate it but I don't really want to celebrate my birthday "So, I couldn't do a lot but the cookers let me help them with this little breakfast and because I didn't know what to get you we will go later and like that you can choose what you want, also I made a reservation at a fancy restaurant and we will go at 8 so we need to come back to the hotel and get ready at 6 oh also I" I took her hand "This is amazing Stefania, but I need to go pee" I told her and she chuckle but nod her head

Having to go pee it has been my better excuse, how can I tell her that I don't want to do anything of that, yes I'm happy that she took her time to do all of that for me, but I don't want to celebrate my fucking birthday, for two things, one I haven't done anything cool for my birthday since the last birthday I had with Leo, I mean people don't understand that today it's Leo's birthday too and I was used to celebrate it with him, now it's just my birthday and it feels different, that's why I wanted to spend it with Lizzie because she always found something to make me happy and to not be sad about Leo and two I am not spending my birthday with Lizzie just how I planned to

I returned and Stefania is already eating breakfast "You should really try it, this is amazing and I am not just saying because I helped but dude this taste amazing" she said and I chuckle. I walked toward her and sat to eat the breakfast she prepared. I don't want people to call me and to wish me a happy birthday, because if I'm honest my birthday has nothing happy. Maybe I should try all that shit Stefania has prepared maybe I will feel a little happy

As I was changed into comfy clothes I remembered that Stefania told me that she needed to go but she is still here, not that I'm complaining, I mean her company it's not that bad. "Hey, you have been here 4 days, when do you have to go?" I asked her and she scoffed "I thought you were happy having me here" she said and I chuckle "It's not that, I am happy to have you here but I know your job is so important to you" I told her and she shake her head "I want to be here, besides we haven't start filming yet and when we start I will ask some days off" she said and I shake my head "I'm not asking you to do that, I mean you can go back to work and I really won't be mad about it" I told her

She looked at me confused "Do you really want me to leave?" She said but I shake my head "No, it's not that, I really like that you are here and I am not alone, but just don't feel obligated to stay just because I don't want to be alone" I told her and she nods "Yeah don't worry, I need to go back but when they really need me I will make sure to tell you, and I thought you wanted to be alone" she said and I chuckle "I don't want to be alone, but I know that I need to be some time alone and clear my mind, I need time for myself" I told her and she looked at me confused "When is Lizzie coming with you, I mean if I'm not leaving yet she might come and see that I'm here with you" she said, I really need to tell her that Lizzie won't come. I  just looked at her and shrugged "Don't worry about that, I have everything under control" I told her and she looked at me more confused "C'mon let's go for a walk to the beach" I told her and she nod

After our walk in the beach I told Stefania that I wanted to go to explore a mountain, she told me no because I didn't know the mountain and she started rambling about all the dangers that we can find there, I insisted her but she also said that what if we can't return and all of the plans that she has for the day get ruined because we take too long on the mountain I told her that nothing of that is going to happen and I told her that it was my birthday, when I told her that she gave in and her we are exploring the mountain

I feel a little bit bad because maybe what Stefania had planned it's going to be canceled because I don't know where we are and I can't remember from where we came "I told you, now we are going to die, you are going to die on your birthday, that sucks" she said worried "Could you calm down, I will get us out of here, but we need to take a break and breath because we need to think" I told her and she nods. We sat on a big rock, we have been walking 3 hours and just about 30 minutes ago we realized we were lost "Why do I think you don't want to do anything with your birthday" she said and I sighed "Because I really don't want, I can't and I didn't want to tell you because you looked really excited" I told her and she sighed