Light On (Alan Longmuir Fanfiction)

Chapter 97

- December 10th 1977 -

Y/N's POV

Life is always kind of amazing in the way things work out. I have been doing a lot of thinking when it comes to how life has been recently. And just life in general. Me and Alan have been together for quite a number of years now. And me and Derek have known one another for as long as I can remember. Life is kind of crazy in how it makes you feel and the thinks it does to you.

"Are you thinking again?" Alan asked as he looked at me.

"Yeah. You know me I am always thinking and it is kind of hard for me to stop at any time," I said with a bit of a chuckle.

"Well what are you thinking about right now? Do you want to talk about it or not?" Alan asked.

"Maybe we could talk about it but I don't know," I said.

"Well if you do not want to talk about it then we do not have to but if you do we can," he said.

"Well do you ever just think about life? And just realize how quickly things happen?" I asked as I looked at him.

"Well yeah of course. But isn't that how life is supposed to be? Fast paced and crazy," he said.

"Well yes but then again after the holiday you are going to be going off again to do more shows. I am going to be here on myself again," I said.

"You know I do not have to go off again if you do not want me to," he said.

"I do want you to that is not the thing. I think it is just I am thinking too much you know. I think when I sit down and think it is kind of what is messing with me," I said.

"Well then maybe just try and live in the moment and not worry too much about the future," he said.

"But if I am not thinking about the future it is not going to be possible for me to plan out the things I need to. What if something goes wrong and we are not able to prepare for it?" I asked.

"You are just freaking out now my love," Alan said as he wrapped his arms around me and pulled me to close to him.

"I am not freaking out," I said.

"Yes, you are my love. It is okay though you just need to take a deep breath," he said as he played with my hair.

"Okay, fine I will," I said as I took a deep breath.

"Good," he said as he kissed the top of my head.

"I don't know why but sometimes I just can't stop myself from thinking. And then it gets to be too much," I said.

"And that is one of the reasons you have me in your life. I am here to calm you down and you are able to do the same for me," he said.

"I appreciate you always being here with me," I said as I looked at him and smiled a little.

"If I can get a smile like that out of you then I know I have done good," he said.

"You are the only one who can get me to smile like this," I said.

"Then that makes me feel a little bit more special," he said.

I hugged him tightly and then kissed him.

"Do you think we should go out and do something?" he asked.

"I think we should," I said.

"Alright. What do you want to go out and do?" he asked.

"I think it would be fun to go skating," I said.

"I don't think that is possible in this weather my love but we could try," he said.

"Mmm true it is kind of cold outside so maybe not. What could we do?" I asked.

"I don't know but anything you would want to do I am good with," he said.

"Well why don't we go and check out the Christmas store? They just opened it and I think it might be fun to go see what they have there," I said.

"Then to the Christmas store is where we are going to go," he said.

We soon headed out the door and out to the Christmas store and inside.

"Oh my goodness it is beautiful in here," I said.

"The outside was beautiful but you are right it is absolutely beautiful inside here," he said.

"I am sure we can find a couple of things to pick up from here," I said.

"Anything you want we will get it my love," he said.

We walked around the building for a little bit and picked out a couple of things for the house. We found some unique and interesting things here.

"It looks like everything is made by hand here. I think it is completely amazing," he said.

"I think everything is made by hand," I said.

"I think it is unique when you get to own things like that," he said.

"I think so too. Because it means everything is special and there is nothing quite like it. I mean yes someone could make something similar to it but it would not be the same," I said.

"We should think about making crafts one of these days. I think it could be something special for our kids one day in the future to have something the parents made," he said.

"You know what? You are right that would be so cute. We could even make something for them even though we do not know them yet," I said.

"Aww thinking of that idea is so cute and special," he said.

"Well I think we got all of the things we wanted here," I said.

"I think so too," he said.

We soon went to pay and headed out of the shop.

"Is there a place around here that has hot chocolate?" I asked.

"Yes, there is one not too far from here we should go to," he said.

We soon made our way to a place that sold hot chocolate and picked up one for each of us.

"I think it is nice the days we get to do these kinds of things," I said.

"So I assume you are feeling better?' he asked.

I nodded and smiled a little.