DREAM P.O.V.
Demon stood in the bathroom mirror, washing his hands. I walked behind him touching his scar on his back.
You're apart of me forever! He said without looking up. I wrapped my arm around his waist and kissed his back.
He turned around to face me and I kissed his lips. "Thank you for making me feel like I'm not alone." I laid my head on his chest and he wrapped his arms around me. "I love you!"
I love you! He said back kissing me on my forehead.
Both of our surgeries were a success. He freaked out really bad demanding that he stay woke during my entire operation because he was so scared he would lose me. Everything went perfectly fine. They was able to convince him to go under while I was under so they could transfer right there in the room instead of waiting until he was prepped and ready to go.
He had a few complications, losing a lot of blood and his blood pressure dropping. They were scared he was gonna code on the table. They used my blood for him and gave him transfusions and was able to close up well and the surgeries were a success.
When I woke up I cried, I cried so hard. Not because I just gave my husband a kidney and he's now gonna live. But because I felt so guilty about not being happy about being a mom. Because I didn't smile that my girls were born, because the most important part of my life was overshadowed by my brother's death. And I still haven't came to realization that my husband will live.
You okay? He asked lifting my chin up to look at him.
If I say yes I'd be lying! I buried my face in his chest. He stroked my hair back and held me tighter.
Take as much time as you need. I'm right here! He assured me.
I started to cry because I was I was so overwhelmed with emotions.
I know this is hard for you baby but I'm right here ight. Don't worry I got you! I can't say everything will be okay cause, death is never okay. You literally just had two kids, a major surgery and dealing with death all at once. You're gonna be filled with emotion so don't be afraid to let it out. I'm right by your side every step of the way baby girl. I'm gonna take a year off from the streets, just you, me and the kids. Ima heal, you're gonna heal and everything else can wait. He spoke softly to me wiping my tears.
Am I a bad mom?
You could never be a bad mom! You're an amazing mother, you're just grieving right now baby. Don't think like that. Your mom and brother would be so proud of you. I'm so proud of you!
I don't want them to hate me...
They could never hate you, you gave them life! Their babies and don't understand anything that's going on right now. They are a few days old and concentrating on growing since they came early. They love their mom all they know is you. They are the only two who knows what your heart sounds like from the inside. They need you!
I want to see them and tell them I'm sorry!
Sorry for what? Dream life happens and sadly we can't control the unexpected. It's 3am how about we go back to bed and I'll take you up there first thing in the morning. Okay?
I nodded my head yes and wiped my face. He grabbed a clean wash rag and wiped my dry tears cleaning my face then kissing my forehead.
I probably wouldn't be surviving right now if it wasn't for him. Demon may be a hard, tough, mean, guy but in this moment nun of that defunded him and he was absolutely everything that I needed.
