Will broke up with Connor on Friday night and started dating Asher the very next day. They've been hanging out a lot and even though it's been less than a week, Will told me he thinks the third time might be the charm and he thinks he loves him. He seems really happy. Maybe I can finally relax to the point where basic tasks don't feel impossibly hard. I tried to talk to Eleanor when they got home from dance but it felt like they weren't really interested in a conversation. Or maybe they were just tired. I hate feeling like I'm being too needy. But why does wanting to have a conversation with your partner make you needy? And why do you always expect me to pick up on your little signals when I've proven many times that I can't? Sometimes I feel like you think I'm stupid. But I'm not trying to be. I'm trying so hard. So hard all the time but no one else can see it.
