Be My Forever [COMPLETE]

Chapter 53

"Toby, can I tell you something?" I ask that night, right before we go to bed. We were crawling into bed, and he began to wrap his arms around me.

"Anything." Toby said.

"I really want to... Nevermind." I changed my mind at the last minute. I knew it was stupid, but he would just tell me the same thing he said the first time. That we need to wait till we're married.

"No, tell me." Toby insisted.

"I've been thinking about... having a baby." I admit.

Toby sat up, taking his arms off me.

"This is something you really want?" He asked, "You're willing to give up your body, your social life, sleep, and your free time?"

"Look, Toby, I know it's crazy, but I've always dreamt about having a baby with you."

Toby adjusted the blanket, wrapping his arms around me once again.

"Well, if that's what you want..."

"Oh my god, really?!" I exclaim. He's actually considering this?!

"Yeah, really. Let's have a baby!"

-:-

-1 week later-

When I came home from the hospital, I sat on the couch and began to cry. Why could this happen? My life was finally coming together, and then it all came crashing down.

I can't do the one thing every woman should be able to do.

I heard footsteps in the kitchen. Not making an effort to wipe my tears away, I investigate. Toby was home from work early. Great, I had to tell him now. I was hoping I got to wait a while.

"Hey baby," he said, right before noticing my tears, "hey, what's wrong?"

My hands start shaking, and I begin to cry on his shoulder, soaking his shirt with my tears. Without thinking I wrap my legs around him, letting him carry me like a baby.

Toby carried me to the couch, and asked me what happened.

I wiped away my tears, and proceeded.

"I went to the doctor today, for some information, for when we start trying," I say, feeling the tears coming back again.

"And?" Toby asked.

"And," I say, in a voice low enough to where he could barely hear, "I can't have children."