Be My Forever [COMPLETE]

Chapter 97

When I woke up the next morning, Toby was gone. He didn't even say goodbye. I turned to his side of the bed, and there lie a note. What I regret the most is having my hopes up too high. When I reached for the note, I expected there to be a sweet message and an apology. But no.

"Valerie and Claire are at daycare. I'll be back in June. -Toby"

June. That's three months away. He didn't even bother to wake me up, or put it in the goddamn note, to say goodbye. Now I'm going to live for three months without him.
He didn't even say "I love you." Now I'm doubting his love for me, and I'm doubting my love for him.

Maybe getting married young was a bad idea. I'm trying with all my power not to lash out and call him, but I control myself. I'll just have to wait this excruciatingly long three months.

I call him, but only to check on him. He answered on the third ring.

"Hey." He said. He sounded tired.

"Hi." I said. His voice was so soothing, but I had to remind myself that I was still angry at him.

"How's everything?" Toby asked.

"Everything's fine." I said. I hate this. I hate not being able to talk to him like before.

"That's good." He said.

"You're really not coming back until June?" I asked. I can't stand the idea of not seeing him for three months.

"Maybe. Now they're saying I might not be able to go back home until August."

Five months?

"You're going to miss a lot."

"I know. But if you guys come here-"

"Toby, we're not leaving New Hampshire."

We continued to talk. Things seemed really awkward between us. We were close to fighting again, and I couldn't handle that. I got ready for work and said goodbye to Toby.

-:-

The rest of the day continued on pretty normally. I taught my classes, picked the girls up from daycare after work, and we ate dinner. But things felt so different without Toby.

"Mama, where's daddy?" Valerie asked.

"Daddy's at work." I said, feeding Claire.

I could tell Valerie was confused. Toby is usually home by now, and she won't go to bed unless Toby is there to tuck her in. Even though Valerie isn't biologically my daughter, she still inherited my stubbornness.

Claire fell asleep, and Valerie didn't finish eating. I needed Toby more than anything, and I want him back.