Be My Forever [COMPLETE]

Chapter 98

A few days later, at work, I decided that I had to vent to somebody. It would've been unprofessional to complain to my students, and I wasn't really close with any of the other teachers.

I decided to visit Alexander, the school's guidance counselor, during lunch. It seemed tacky, but it's his job to listen to people's problems and give his opinion.

"Well, I think that you're very mature for your age," he joked, "I don't meet many high schoolers with husbands and kids."

I laughed. It was the first time I really laughed since Toby left.

"I think that you should both give each other space. Maybe it'll blow off some steam. And by the looks of it, you both are at fault, so you should both apologize. Not just him."

"Thanks. And sorry I barged in like this. I know you must have a bunch of students waiting for you."

Alexander scooted towards me. "It's fine. It's not everyday I'm visited by a beautiful woman like yourself." His blue eyes were glowing, and his dark hair looked soft.

For some reason, I let him scoot in closer. His scent was putting me in some sort of trance.

"That's very kind of you, Mr. Thomas, but I really should be going."

And for some reason, I stayed put.

"Your husband must not appreciate you. Hell, if I were married to someone like you, I'd treat you like royalty."

I don't know what made me do it. Maybe it was because I was lonely. Maybe I was delusional.

But I kissed him.

His lips were different than Toby's. He tasted different, and his lips weren't soft like Toby's. It felt good at first, but then it felt wrong on many levels.

"This was a bad idea," I said, pulling away. Without looking back, I grabbed my things and raced back to my classroom.

I just kissed a man who was not my husband. It was something I vowed I would never do. I felt like the worst person in the world. Worse than that- I felt like I was a burden.

If I confess to Toby, he might be angry. He might want a divorce. He might take his anger out on me. But then again, he might not. I know Toby, and he's not one to judge me so quickly. After all, he practically saved my life.

I'll confess. It's the right thing to do, and I can't keep this from him.