Be My Forever [COMPLETE]

Chapter 54

"You can't..." Toby said. I knew he wanted to finish his sentence, but he couldn't.

"I'm sorry. They said it was basically impossible-" I say, avoiding eye contact with him.

"Don't apologize." Toby says. He was avoiding eye contact with me, too.

"I really thought I was going to live a happy, normal life." I say, a sob cracking through my body.

"Hey, hey," Toby says, finally looking me in the eye and bringing me in for a hug, "it's okay. You're going to be okay."

I start sobbing again, and I lay next to him, until I eventually cry myself to sleep.

-:-

Seeking the company of my best friend, I called Aria the next day.

"Hey, what's up?" Aria said.

"Hey. I know you're probably busy, but I just really need to talk."

"Alright, I'm free at noon," Aria said, "let's meet at the brew."

"Alright." I hung up, wishing that Toby's arms were wrapped around me. He left for work, although he insisted that he stay home with me.

I look at the time. It's 9:15. I sit on the couch, and for the first time, I actually let myself think about what happened.

I can't have children.

This is the one thing every woman should be able to do. I'll never get to experience being pregnant. I won't be able to carry children. Every single dream I've had about starting a family and becoming a mother faded away and became crushed.

I didn't even know I was crying until a hot tear landed on my hand.
How could I even continue to live, knowing I'm going to grow old and childless?

-:-

I waited for Aria to arrive at the brew. I could finally see that her baby bump was showing. It was small. It was barely noticeable, but it looked cute on her.

"Hey, Spence!" Aria said, hugging me tightly. I tried not to hug her back too tightly, hoping I wouldn't hurt the baby.

Aria ordered some herbal tea for her, meanwhile I ordered my usual extra large coffee.

"What did you want to talk about?" Aria asked, cooling off her tea.

I remembered what I needed to tell her. What I actually came here to talk to her about.

"Aria.." I begin to say, "something happened yesterday, and I need to tell you."

"Of course, Spencer, you can tell me anything." Aria said, reaching out to grab my hand.

"I found out yesterday that I can't have kids." I bursted out. I just had to say it. And get it over with.

"Oh my god," Aria whispered to herself, "you must be crushed."

All I did was slightly nod my head. I didn't want to say anything. Enough has been said. I can never know what it's like to be pregnant, like Aria.

"Spencer, can you give me, like, two minutes?" Aria asked, getting up.

"Um, sure." I say, startled by her sudden movement.

Aria made her way to the restroom, dialing a number onto her phone.

-:-

Almost forty-five minutes passed. I was beginning to think that Aria bailed on me, until she arrived, emerging from the hallway outside the bathroom.

"Spencer! Spencer!" She said running towards me.

"Whoa, calm down! I don't want you to hurt your beautiful baby," I say, gesturing Aria to sit down.

"I just got off the phone with Ezra." She stated, catching her breath.

"That's great. Now, where were we?"

"No, Spencer, listen! We talked for a while, and, since you want this so much, probably more than we do.."

"Aria," I loved her, but she had a tendency to mumble and ramble on and on.

"Anyways, we decided that it's all up to you."

"What is?"

"Our baby."

"Aria, what are you saying?"

"Spencer, do you want to adopt our baby?"