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My life is built around events, conversations, and moments that I never seem to want to miss.
I try to take time by myself to collect my thoughts and find my state of mind
but you're always there and I never seem to want to miss out
on you.
A quick message, an invitation, a contemplation that I probably shouldn't make,
because life is not all about the moments that you don't want to miss.
Sometimes life is accepting the moments that you spend most of your time wishing away.
Laying in bed, avoiding my responsibilities, listening to the birds chirp to eachother, and the tires of a car running down the gravel road that I call home, dampened by the showers that fell this moring while I was busy "learning" in class.
A moment I would not always look foward to, but definitely a moment I don't want to miss.
Because every moment is a moment I don't want to miss.
The moment at a live show when the artist starts playing one of my favorite songs, and I scream.
The moment I start to get into the groove of a new drawing instead of feeling overwhelmed.
The moment I get a dance move perfect in drama that I have been struggling with.
The moment I look at myself in the mirror and don't hate what I see looking back.
The moment I smell fresh, clean new sheets on my bed.
The moment I step into a hot shower and feel the warm water washing away the day.
The moment i take a perfect picture of something that people don't usually notice.
The moment one of my friends tells me they care about me.
The moment when i put chapstick on my lips after waiting for it all day.
The moment i discover a new song and love it.
The moment I feel myself falling asleep after struggling to do so for an hour.
The moment I finish a hard task that has been bothering me.
The moment when i am happy.
But those aren't the only moments that I don't want to miss.
The moment I compare myself to others and feel horrible,
The moment I fall and scrape my arm or leg,
The moment someone makes me feel small,
The moment when i feel like a complete and total loser,
The moment when i fight with my friends and feel guilty,
The moment when I feel guilty for no reason,
The moment when I feel lost,
The moment when I hate my body and face and life,
The moment when all i want to do is sleep,
The moment when I feel uncomfortable, unsure, unmotivated, unloved.
Because those are all the moments that make up a human life. The sad, painful, awful moments make the amazing moments all the more amazing.
I'm sure I don't want to miss any of these moments.