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heaven :))

Tonight is such a good night, and not for any particular reason. Or more accurately, for many particular reasons.
I feel real good tonight. I got my appetite back, i'm relaxing watching movies, the sun is setting, i'm with me myself and I and it feel lovely. I have been spending a lot of time with my friends and its great but sometimes i just love being alone and feeling good just chilling, especially because these next few weeks are going to be INSANE for 3 main reasons which i will now dive deeper into, and try not to get overly excited and jittery which i'm doing right now.
So lets start with the least fun of the bunch of things, which would be the SAT which is in less then 2 weeks currently. Now i've been thinking about the SAT for a lot of years, and i'm really wondering if i'm actually going to study a lot for it because i'm doing boot camp (the weekend before), and i'm obviously going to take it more than once, so i kinda want to see how good i can do with minimal studying. Is this procrastination? yes! but i don't think i'm in a position to care considering the test happens to have landed in the most chaotic week possibly. Literally, not figuratively. So i guess we'll see how it goes. moving on, because i really don't even want to think too much about the SAT.
The next thing, which will be consuming my entire life for the next two weeks which is necessary but probably bad because i should be studying, is the school play. Opening night is in less than two weeks. Now i honestly don't understand why people don't get excited about their plays, because me and all my friends do. I love going to rehearsals, i love spending time with my friends and doing our dances well and seeing all our hard work pay off. I'm thrilled at the concept of putting on our best makeup (which includes my new eyeshadow palette and smokey dark red lipstick, god bless), dressing up in our cute ass costumes and buzzing with excitement. I'm just so excited and ready to jump in and work on making the play better (because lets be honest, its a mess, but that's mostly not out fault) for the next two weeks. I love relaxing, but if i could be at rehearsal from the time i got out of school to nightime, i wouldn't be upset about it. We have 11.5 hours of rehearsals in the next week and i'm honestly just really excited to work, and i'm super super excited for opening night. One complication, the play opens on the 30th, and goes for 3 nights. The same weekened as my SAT boot camp, which means this will be my weekend:
- thursday: school during the day, play at night
-friday: school during the day, play at night
-saturday: wake up early and go to SAT boot camp, play at night, cast party, etc.
-sunday: wake up early and go to SAT boot camp, mentally prep for the SAT and the additional crazyness of the week.
and i would be completely lying if i said i wasn't absolutely thrilled. I can't wait.
Now, the third, and definitely the most crazy thing happening:
Spain. And. France.
and not only is it my first time in europe, but we leave for the trip the day after the SAT.
Play thursday, friday and saturday, SAT wednesday, leave for europe thursday. Fucking crazy.
i'm positively buzzing thinking about this trip. Going with all my friends, packing, all the locations, the hotels, everything about it. I'm just so excited. I've never stayed away from my house for this long, and it's also the furthest i've ever been from home. Two new languages, one of which i don't know AT ALL, and it's just so exciting. me and my friends have been prepping and thinking and waiting for this trip since last may, and it's 17 days away. Holy shit, i'm actually going to explode. The chaos of the week is also something i'm reluctantly excited for. It's going to be crazy and fun as fuck.
So that's why i'm feeling good tonight. I have no responsibilities to accomplish at the moment, so here i am, buzzing. Ready to work, ready to travel, ready for it all. Less than 2 weeks until it all starts, and so much to prepare until that time. Heaven.