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motivation

So its a monday night, and my day was somewhere between mediocre and sucky, and i just wanted a little rant, some self deprecation and then hopefully some acceptance of my situation.
So rant time. My friend is mad at me for basically no reason, and it makes me sad cause i really didn't do anything wrong. That's the situation basically, and i just hope it gets better because his bday party is on friday and i wanna have a good time! i neeeddd to have a good time. Other rant. Our school play is a fucking mess, and it opens in like 3 weeks. We have barely any costumes, none of the dances perfected, none of the songs perfected, it's just so unprepared. The issue is, a bunch of girls got pulled from rehearsals to learn separate dances, so we never learned some of the songs and dances that the rest of the cast did, (BY DIRECTION OF OUR DIRECTOR MAY I ADD), and now she is yelling at us about how we don't know the dances. Like??? you absolutely never taught them to us. The entire thing is so unorganized, and on top of that, for the only dance we actually knew, apparently we have been using the wrong music for over a month, and the real song is complete different and has different rythem and cues, so we had to remake half the dance, and it is so much. I can't even believe that happened, and the show is so soon. I honestly can't wait until it is all organized, then over, then we leave for europe, got bless! Also, i have lost all motivation to do absolutely any homework or fufill any of my responsibilities. it is a bad thing for me to be doing especially since i need to keep my grades up. I'm just on my period so i'm cranky, i'm exhausted, and i can't force myself to do my work no matter how good i know it would feel once i finished. It doesn't matter, i still can't make myself do it. And i KNOW i would feel awesome once it was done, that's the fucked up part. Let's see if i can gather myself enough right now by listing the ways that it will make tomorrow easier if the work is done.
1. I will wake up with everything done and i won't have to worry about finishing a worksheet and writing an essay.
yea, that's pretty much it.
Still have no idea if i'm actually going to do it tonight.
But atleast i got the motivation to rant. wow.