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Blech

Thats how I feel. Blech.
Let me explain.
Hi friends! It is currently July 18th, because it's 1am and i am up writing this. And i feel totally meh and blech and ehhh. I don't know how else to explain this.
Aside from the general summer vacation thing going on, i dont have a lot going on. A bunch on my friends are on vacation, and yes, i text my friends on a daily basis, but i have been home for the past week or so just kinda doing nothing and it has been....
Ughhhhh
So my sister goes to this weird boarding school, so she is always in school, my mom is always working, and my dad just had surgery so he can only kinda walk, which leaves me with no way to get out of the house, considering i'm 14. Being at home alone, all day, makes you think a lot and stress about things that maybe shouldnt be stressed about, but are. For example, here are some of the things on my stress list this week that are not that stressful but are extremely stressful to me:
• I am attending playlist live DC in September, and I am currently working on a drawing of Matt Lush that i am kinda planning on giving to him at the event. It was going amazingly, but i messed up one of the eyes, and now i have to fix it and i dont know if i will be able to, and i might ruin the drawing completly. This may sound okay, but i have devoted around 10 HOURS to this drawing on average in the past week, and it looks incredible, besides the weird eye. So if i mess it up, that was a lot of time wasted.
• my 15th birthday is coming up in just under 2 weeks and i have absolutely nothing planned. I am kinda planning on just having some friends over, but i havnt sent out any invitations or anything and i dont know what day i want to have it on and agghhhhh
• i have 2 algebra packets to finish this summer because i have a test my first day back, and i cant get motivated to sit down and work on them.
• everyone is out on wonderful adventures and i am kinda stuck at home most of the time, pull me out to a party and take me to starbucks please, i need it.
• my room is so messy and i need to clean it but i just dont want to.
• I am going to bed every night at 2-3 am and waking up way to late, it doesnt feel like life anymore but i cant break this cycle. I feel like death.
•i just finished orange is the new black season 3 and i dont know what to watch on netflix any more.
Haha.
I know, first world problems, blah blah blah. Thank you for letting me rant though.
But my best friend has been in bostan all week and i need to get out of my house. Im going to my friends sisters play tomorrow with him and another friend so hopefully that will pull me out of this weird low i'm in.