Out of Time [Brian Jones]

Yesterday's Papers

 Living a life of constant change
Every day means the turn of a page
Yesterdays papers are such bad news
Same thing applies to me and you
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"So you're dating this deranged guitarist from the Rolling Stones?"

I sighed. I had suspected they would find out that I was dating Brian with the paper full of it and still a part of me had hoped they had overlooked it perhaps, especially Oliver. Mrs Reed would have maybe finally given upon pushing Edgar on me, but Oliver would just use it to annoy me and I certainly didn't need that after the last few days. Taking a small break definitely had been the right decision. I had even finally found some time to visit Marry and return the signed record to Mr. Evan. It was odd to see him again, especially seeing he had hired somebody new. I missed working there and it felt like he had just moved on without any care. Of course I couldn't blame him for it, he had a business to lead and still it hurt to see how easily I could be replaced. At least visiting Mary had raised my spirits a bit, even though there was something that unnerved me. I could hardly tell her she would get pregnant sometime in the near future, but not saying anything when she had been so unhappy about it seemed wrong as well...

Even though I couldn't understand why, she was still dating Ben and apparently was happy with him. He still threated her like she was the most precious thing for him and I suppose it had grown on her. He might not be what she had imagined, but we never get what we wished for anyway and Ben loved her. It probably was enough for her at the moment. Mary didn't talk about it and nowadays she seemed to be more occupied with my problems than hers, but I knew her long enough to see that she struggled too. At first it had been hard because this life had been new to her and now that she slowly got the hang of it, I think she realised that it wasn't as easy as she had expected it to be.

I had finally talked to Brian about the flat and after a longer discussion he had agreed to my plea to no longer pay the rent. It had been wrong from the start to accept it, but I had needed that security. Now that we were more than two people brought together by fate, taking his money seemed dirty. I didn't need Brian to pay for me nor did I want that. It might have been an unusual thought, but it seemed wrong to me to rely on Brian for the money, when I could work too. Even though there was nothing I wanted more than to be a housewife, lead a normal life and be like everybody else, relying on a man to bring money home sounded stupid to me or maybe it simple was because I hadn't been raised that way.

Mary, on the other hand had a very different opinion. She didn't see what was wrong with taking Brian's money, when he had enough of it, so she was not very happy to hear that Brian wouldn't pay anymore. It surprised me that she had relied so much on him, but I soon found out why. I had expected her to save her money and put it aside for the future, because that's what you did when you had no money. Mary however had never been in any financial troubles and was used to spend it as she liked. In short she lived beyond her means and needed Brian to pay her rent.

So I decided to pay it until July, telling her simply Brian changed his mind. I didn't want her to suffer nor did I want to ask Brian for money. This gave her at least some time and I supposed I no longer needed my money anyway, if the voice was to be believed, either because I was dead or because I had inherited Brian's...

I had no idea what to do about that and I doubted I would find an answer... Maybe it really was the best to put it up to fate and just spend whoever's last months it were happy. To live and forget about death, even if it sounded horrible wrong to me.

At least there was like always so many different things going on that I indeed got the whole vision and death matter of my mind for a bit. Mary had been right when she said Brian had ignored the reports far too long and there were now a million rumours going around. Thereby everything had started so simple, I was only Brian's new girl. There was nothing more interesting to say about me at that point. Nobody knew my name nor did they really care about me, because they thought I was just a fling, but then some bad talk came up after their show in December, because Brian had hit John Lennon. Most put it down as some stupid band rivalry thing, but apparently there was a rumour that John had crossed a line with me and Brian had felt the need to put John back into his place. Nothing came out of it though, after the 11th Brian had been spotted a few times on his own and everyone had expected that he had moved on again, but then in the New Year a girl turned up claiming Brian had romantically feelings for Charlie Watts. Luckily for both of them that rumour never made it really big, not even the reporters seemed to buy that, especially when a different story caught their attention. Looking back, I'm indeed astonished how I had missed so much, especially the engagement thing. Apparently getting someone like Brian, who had a girl in every port to settle down was a miracle and suddenly there was a huge need to talk to me. Me, the woman who had done the impossible, but neither I nor Brian were to be found, which only seemed to add to this craze. Talks about secret marriage and an escape were made. It actually was kind of impressive what people could interpret into something, but I couldn't blame them this sounded better than the reality.