Let's Not Talk About Tomorow

Jon

I pushed my food about my plate, hoping that it would convince Ben I was eating. He hadn't slept in days, he couldn't tell one foot from the other. I looked up at him now, he was staring in my direction but his eyes weren't focused. I waved my hand in front of his face, he snapped out of his trance.

"Princess, eat" He sighed

"Only if you do" I bargained "I haven't seen you eat anything for a while"

"Fine" He grabbed a banana out of the fruit bowl between us

"A proper meal, Benny"

"But we don't have time to cook"

"Yes we do. I love Jake just as much as you do but we need to look after ourselves too" I slid off my chair and walked around the kitchen island to him, tugging his arm "Just make something quick, like that granola yogurt fruity thing"

"Okay" He sighed, allowing me to pull him off his seat.

I cuddled up in his lap as he ate his meal, the spoon occasionally made its way into my mouth.

"I love you" I mumbled, reaching up to press a light kiss on his jaw.

"I love you too, princess" He lifted up my chin and kissed me on the lips "I ate, are you happy now?"

"No, go to sleep, Benny" I traced a pattern on his chest "You're so tired"

"Only if you come with me?"

"Okay" He picked me up and carried me upstairs. He set me down gently before flopping down face first on the bed, not even bothering to get undressed. I stripped off to my underwear and crawled onto the bed. Ben groaned and buried his face in his pillow. "Benny? What's wrong?"

"Nothing, princess" He said into his pillow "Go to sleep"

"Benny, tell me what's wrong"

"It's just.... you look so sexy and we haven't had sex since Jake went missing, about 3 weeks ago, and I don't want to be the needy guy but I'm needy" He blurted out all in one breath

"Ben, you could have just said you wanted to have sex" I nuzzled into him

"It just seems wrong to have sex now" He sighed. I shut him up by kissing him, long and hard. I rolled on top of him and his hands found their way to my ass, cupping me. "Princess, can we just go slow?"

"Of course, Benny" I lifted up the hem of his shirt "This okay, baby?"

"Mhm" I kissed his bare chest taking extra time on his sensitive nipples. He gasped and raked a hand through my hair. I continued my trail south, stopping to look at him when I reached the zipper on his jeans, he nodded.

Skin on skin, moving rhythmically together. Wet kissing, only broken to heavily pant. Gentle touches, loving every part of each other. The sound of love. I wasn't as strong as Ben, I couldn't continuously be in charge, I was exhausted from riding him. However, tonight was for Ben. I willed myself to continue, not caring if I couldn't walk tomorrow.

"Are you tired, princess?" He asked as I noticeably slowed in pace

"Benny, this is about you" I murmured "Don't worry about me"

"I can't help it, I worry too much" He smiled "Let me help,princess"

"No, Benny"

"Just like this" He rested his hands on my hips and lifted me up and down ever so slightly, quickening my bounces. Once we both finished, I collapsed on top of him "Baby, let me slide out"

"M'tired" I was already half asleep. Ben lifted me off him to allow his now flaccid dick to slide out before laying me back down on his chest. "I love you"

 "I love you too, baby boy"