Boston (Book 2 Rob and Caroline)

Truth

I woke up in Rob's arms, "we had a pretty good night" I said smiling at him, running a hand through his hair. 

"Yes, we did" Rob said holding me tight like I might disappear. His strong, firm hands caressing my body. 

"Is there anything you want to do today?" I asked melting into him. 

"Nope, I just want you to stay like this" Rob said kissing my forehead. 

"Me too" I said, and then the thought ran through my mind. "Rob, did you use a condom last night?" 

"Yeah" he said pulling away and giving me a confused look. "I think so."

"Are you sure?" I asked looking at him, getting more stressed by the minute.

"Just, hang on, I'll check the trash. I think so, we we're just both pretty drunk" he said getting out of bed. 

"That's not the excuse I really want to hear today" I mumbled to myself. 

Rob walked back in, "yes" Rob said getting back into bed, "I did." 

"Thank god" I said trying to re destress myself. 

"I mean it wouldn't have been the end of the world, we are monogamous, and you have low fertility" Rob said, "it's not like I have herpes."

My heart kinda broke at the words low fertility coming out of his mouth. Should I tell him about my pregnancy scare a few days ago

"Rob, the point is that my birth control is a very low dose, and right now isn't the time for a pregnancy scare" I said "not with everything going on."

"Are you saying there's a chance of you getting pregnant?" I saw Rob's face light up. 

"I don't know, the doctor said I just have low odds." I said, I looked at him, I have to tell him "right before this vacation, something felt off, I threw up a few times, and I gained a few pounds. I thought I could maybe be pregnant, but I wasn't sure, I knew it didn't make sense. I took the test and it was negative, but I couldn't figure out wether to be relieved or sad."

"Caroline" Rob said hugging me. 

"I can't even explain my feelings" I said, "and right now, I just can't question it again. I mean I sat thinking about it, and as much as I was scared and I knew it wasn't the right time, and I was so relieved knowing that I wasn't pregnant. The thought of that miracle and thinking about having a baby knowing that my odds weren't good. I was sad, because I had gotten my hopes up."

Rob pulled away a little so he can look me in the eyes, "why didn't you tell me when you were questioning it?"

"I didn't want to worry you, or get you excited, or get your hopes up" I said, "I knew I was probably wrong."

"Next time tell me" he said, "what can I do?" 

"We just need to use condoms, I need to know that there is absolutely no way that I can be pregnant" I said, "right now going into me working, and your arm. I can't deal with that one little piece of hope that I can have a baby."

"Okay" Rob said holding me, "You're so amazing" he kissed the top of my head. 

"Rob, right now I can't deal with that small sliver of hope, so let's just assume that there is no chance that I'll be able to have babies" I said "I've dealt with it for years by just saying I don't want kids."

"Okay" Rob said squeezing me tight. I got up out of bed, 

"I'm just going to go get ready" I said getting out of bed and heading for the bathroom. 

I felt the door open and Rob wrap his arms around my naked body from behind. I looked in the mirror. "Rob, just let me put some clothes on before we cuddle more."

He held me in place, "You are so beautiful and so strong" he said, "so confident." We made eye contact in the mirror. "I just want you to know that I will love you, forever."

"I love you too" I said.

"Now, you change, and get yourself all pretty, and I'll meet you downstairs to eat breakfast" he kissed my cheek. 

I took a deep breath, throwing on a bikini and throwing a little pair of lace see through shorts over it. 

I walked downstairs, and I felt Rob look me up and down. "You look so hot" he said pulling me into him, he left a kiss on my neck. That one of the downsides of accepting more of Rob's touchiness, he then gets even more touchy. I tried to accept it, we've already had a very eventful morning. This is what makes him feel loved, rejecting his touch makes him feel like I'm rejecting him.

"Caroline, can we talk for a second?" Sam asked. 

"Yeah, sure?" I said confused "I'll be right be" I got out of Rob's grasp and followed Sam outside. Sam hugged me, "Sam what's wrong?" I asked confused. 

"I don't know, last night I was so drunk, and then after I got in bed I realized you and Rob were both feeling pretty good, and I just got so worried that he could take advantage of you. Even though I know he wouldn't, so I didn't come burst through your door. But I don't know, I still just was worried" Sam squeezed me. "I'm glad your awake and everything's okay. I would have never forgave myself if I didn't come get you and something did happen."

"I'm fine" I said pulling away, "and I really appreciate that you worry about me. And I get it, I understand why you do. But you have to remember that you're not responsible for me, and it's not like I went to bed with a stranger, it's Rob, my fiancé."

"I know, and that's why I didn't come burst through your door, but I tossed and turned all night" Sam said. 

"I'm okay" I said, hugging him "haven't you and Morgan ever had a little too much to drink and still slept in a bed together, and you didn't take advantage of her did you?"

Sam looked at me, "you can't expect a drunk guy to put a condom on correctly" Sam said. 

"Well good thing I'm on the pill" I said with a laugh. I got up, "I'm all good okay, I appreciate you being so worried about me."

I walked inside pouring myself a cup of coffee and sitting down next to Rob on the couch.

"Alright, so this is the third day in a row I've asked, massage day?" Rob looked at me. 

"I think we can make the time" I nodded my head. 

"Alright, well we are heading to the pool" my mom said, "maybe you two can start nailing down a date for the wedding? Diane and I have lots of planning to do."

I let out a laugh, "you know I just want something small."

"With the fiasco those two could create, I vote we just elope" Rob said with a laugh. 

"No" Diane, my mom, and Nene said at the same time. 

"Babe, you ready to head to the spa?" Rob asked getting us out of this corner.

"Yeah, sure" I said getting up. 

We got in the car, Rob leaned over and pecked me on the lips. "I'm so glad I'm gonna get some alone time with you" he said starting the car. He rested his hand on my thigh. "And dear god you in those shorts."

"Have just a little bit of self control" I said with a laugh, shaking my head.