Boston (Book 2 Rob and Caroline)

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I woke up in Robs arms. "Babe, we shouldn't be cuddling" I said waking him up and moving out of his arms.

"It's what we needed" he said groggy.

"Do you really want to stick with this?" I asked looking at him.

"Stick with what?" Rob asked waking up more.

"This sex therapy thing" I said.

"Yes, a thousand times yes, it will be worth it" he put his hand out, rubbing my arm. "What do you think of the idea of sleeping naked?"

"Why would I sleep naked?" I asked with a laugh.

"You just don't seem to be very comfortable being naked around me"

"That's because I don't want to have sex, and being naked would mean you attempting to initiate sex.  I'm perfectly comfortable being naked."

"You used to sleep in pretty skimpy clothing" Rob said.

"Can we drop the used to's for the time being" I said with a sigh.

"I like when you sleep in skimpy clothing" he said, brushing a stray hair out of my face.

"I like that I can now hold a conversation with you, where as last week you were on so many pain meds and in so much pain that you were a zombie" I said getting out of bed and walking into the kitchen, starting a pot of coffee.

"Let me make breakfast babe" Rob said wrapping his arms around me from behind.

"Rob, what are you doing?" I asked turning around.

"Caroline, remember our homework?  We are supposed to be having more nonsexual touch."

"And what is nonsexual about you pushing your package against my ass?" I cocked an eyebrow at him.  "Please start looking at things from my perspective."

I walked away, sitting outside on the porch.  Rob walked out a few minutes later, handing me a cup of coffee. "Thank you."

He sat down in the chair next to mine.  Reaching out, grabbing my hand.  "Baby, I'm sorry" Rob said,  "you're right, I don't see things from your viewpoint.  I just am feeling better, and I want to get to love on you."

"Right now, I need you to be intuitive babe.  I need you to read me better, you know me, I know you do.  Just like you're healing, I'm dealing with my demons."

"Caroline, I love you a lot, and I don't know how to not love hard."

"I know, and you've loved me more and harder and better than any man before.  You've been patient and kind and real with me when you've needed to be.  I'm just telling you we've dug up my demons, and I'm dealing with them.  And that means that I need you to be more intuitive  of what I need and less clueless of how I need loved at the moment.  I know that can be a lot to ask, but I'm telling  you that's what I need."

"I will try" Rob said, "I promise I'll really try."

"That's all I ever want is for you to try" I said, "and I know it can be confusing that one day I'm all in for a hot naked make out and the next I don't want to be touched.  I know that's hard, I know it has to be hard for you, and I'm so sorry, but don't think I don't need you.  I need you more than ever."

"Caroline, that ring on your finger.  It says I will try every damn day to be the man you deserve."

I put a hand on his cheek leaning over and kissing him lightly on the lips.  "You know what I need right now?"

"What do you need baby girl?"

"I need to sit on the outdoor sofa, lay my head on my mans shoulder, and drink my coffee till well past eleven am."