Boston (Book 2 Rob and Caroline)

Changes

I woke up in Rob's arms, I kissed him waking him up. What can I say? I'm impatient, I don't have all day to lay here while he sleeps.

"So, do you want to do the trip with all of your and my siblings for your birthday?" I asked

"Caroline, just give me a second to wake up" Rob said pulling me in for another kiss.

I pulled away, "Rob, I need to know if I need to start planning."

"Caroline, no business right now, it's just about us" Rob said pulling me in to cuddle.

He kissed my neck but it wasn't like an I need you right now, I could tell it was just a calm stay here, I love you. I relaxed into him. 

"Caroline, you've got to stay relaxed" Rob said running his hands up and down my back. 

"I know, I'll be home at seven tonight," I said closing my eyes, enjoying this time. 

"And if you're going to be late, just call" Rob said, "I understand, but it's nice to know that you aren't in a ditch."

"I know" I said, "but I also know that I need to be on time tonight, because you want alone time, and Saturday Liz, Max, and Sam are coming down for the long weekend."

"Caroline, what are the rules now that we're engaged, have they changed?" Rob looked at me, "not that I really want to discuss it right now, because I'm enjoying just hanging out, but I also want you to realize that I am going to kiss you good morning and goodbye in front of Lizzy."

I let out a deep breath, "do we really have to argue in the morning?" 

"Babe, this isn't an argument it's a discussion. And it won't blow up into an argument if we both just stay calm" Rob said, "relax."

"Rob, I'm okay with you kissing me goodbye and good morning, but no you can't make out with me in the kitchen."

"Okay" Rob said

"No jokes that hint at our sex life, no slapping my butt" I said, "can you handle that?"

"Will you cuddle on the couch with me?" Rob asked, "or are you going to pull the shit you used to pull and sit on the other side of it."

"Rob, yes we can cuddle on the couch" I said

"Can we have sex?" Rob asked

"Rob, I don't know" I said, "It's just two nights, can't you handle two nights?"

"So no sex, okay" Rob said

"You're mad" I said

"No, I'm not, I'm just trying to be understanding" Rob said

"I've been reading" I said, Rob gave me a confused look, "just trying to understand why I am the way I am, why when I feel like you might initiate sex that night, I basically pump the brakes."

"Uh huh" Rob said wanting me to continue. 

"Apparently it's based off this anxiety that builds in your mind the minute you know your partner might initiate sex, that you won't be able to be in the mood, because you feel this insane pressure to be in the mood"

"Well that sounds about right" Rob said

"So from that standpoint the real solution is for me to start viewing myself as someone who enjoys and anticipates sex" I said, "when you initiate touch and kissing and foreplay, I have to remind myself that I do want this." I paused, " I'm sorry, would you rather not know what I've been reading? We don't have to talk about this if it's too much information for you."

"No, babe, I want to know, I want to understand" Rob said encouraging me. 

"I just want you to be able to understand, and another article said from the standpoint of my past I have to constantly remind myself that I don't need to fear physical contact with you. Which I would say that's something I've already been doing."