Logan

20. My Love For You

SOTD:'My Love For You' by Zane Carney

*Logan's POV*

My entire body went numb as Scarlet explained what had happened.

There had been an accident, a bad one, and Natalie was in really bad shape.

But she was alive...

"Logan?" Scarlett's voice sounded so distant, echoing through my phone where I'd dropped it on the ground next to my bed "Logan you need to come to the hospital and see her."

I didn't even answer her. I picked up my phone and hung up, shoving it roughly into my pocket and then grabbing my black jacket off the floor.
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There were still pieces of Alberto's destroyed vehicle littering the crash site, and I kicked a small piece of metal to the side, staring at the ground and hoping that what I saw wasn't actually her blood.

If I had just talked to her a little longer...

Maybe they would have missed the drunk driver.

She'd still hate me, but she wouldn't be fighting for every breath.

She wouldn't be in pain...

I spotted something out of the corner of my eye, something that looked like...

"No..." I kneeled down on the cold ground, picking up the remains of the silver bracelet I'd made her. The guitar pick was chipped on the bottom edge, the metal of the bracelet mangled almost beyond recognition. I thought she'd gotten rid of it... I though there was no way she would have kept it after what I'd done to her...

I stood up, shoving the remains of her bracelet into the pocket of my jacket, wiping my eyes at the same time rain began falling lightly, slowly washing away the dark scarlet stains that stained the asphalt of the road.
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"Why weren't you answering me?!" I shook my head, leaning forward in the uncomfortable chair across from where she sat in the small waiting area of the hospital. I'd arrived only moments before, and had been ushered to this area by one of the staff at the front desk "Logan please..."

"I had to... I had to see where it happened. I don't... know why but..." I was trying to force myself not to cry in front of her, not that it mattered at this point. Scarlet sighed as she stood up and walked over to where I was sitting , and I couldn't stop myself from flinching when I felt her hand touch my shoulder "Why did I ever lie to her... I could've just told her the whole truth, maybe... maybe it would have meant we wouldn't have been together but..."

"You can't change that Logan." She knelt down in front of me, pulling my hands away from my face "You can only hope you get a chance to fix everything, now."
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"She still hasn't woken up..." I nodded as Alberto entered the room, quietly mumbling a thank you under my breath when he handed me a bottle of water "Alex is in her room, since he's family. They aren't letting anyone else in tonight." He leaned against the doorframe, his arms crossed across his chest "You better be damn serious about fixing everything you've done to this girl."

"I promise..."

"She told me she still loved you..." He hesitated, our eyes connecting briefly "It was one of the last things Natalie said before..." Alberto trailed off, his words seeming to catch in his throat "Look. I just don't want to see her hurt, again. By anything... but especially you." He sighed, pulling at the ends of his sleeves "You destroyed that girl by lying to her Logan. And she doesn't even know the full story..."

"AB this isn't the place or time..." Scarlet mumbled under her breath, standing up from her seat next to me on the small couch. Alberto stopped her, moving his entire body so that it filled the doorway.

"When will be the right time?! Your brother, the person sitting on that couch with a scowl on his face, broke her heart. After all the shit she'd already been through, he chose to make it worse by fucking lying to her! Do you even understand how much you broke her?!" I bit my lip, managing to nod my head as Alberto continued to yell. He trailed off when I stuck my hand into my jacket pocket and pulled out the mangled remains of Natalie's bracelet, the guitar pick edge nearly cutting my palm as I flipped it over "How do you... She was wearing that..."

"I went to the crash site. I had to... I had to see where it happened. Where I almost lost her for good. So you can yell at me all you want, and everything you're saying is right. I'm not denying one word of it. But I promise..." I stood up, shoving the bracelet back into my pocket "I promise that I am going to fix what I've done..." My final words caught in my throat, and Alberto sighed as he stepped aside so I could exit the small space...

Scarlet made a sad attempt to stop me from leaving by moving to grab the arm of my jacket, but I pulled away from her, moving quickly down the short hallway that led to the front desk. I needed to be outside, needed to be alone, away from all the sounds and smells of the hospital.