Logan

4. There She Goes

Had all of that been real?

Was Logan just... messing with me? He wouldn't do that... would he?

I finally managed to sit up in my bed, pulling my knees to my chest and closing my eyes, hard. I concentrated on the faint smell of his cologne that was still hanging in the air around my bed, and the fact that I swore I could still feel his warm breath on my cheek.

"Hey... Logan and I are uh, going to the venue to do a sound check. You wanna go with?" I didn't even look up at Alex's voice as I shook my head no. There was no way I could face Logan so soon after what he'd just said... and what he'd just done. He sighed before quietly closing my door, and I laid down on top of my bed covers, curling into a ball and trying to quiet my mind. I didn't want to feel this way again. I didn't want to get my hopes up, to actually fall for someone to only have it end with me being completely broken. Again.

"Nat? Hey... can I come in? I need to talk to you about something." Scarlet... How could I manage to not mention what her brother had just done?

"Door's unlocked..." I quickly sat up, grabbing my phone off the nightstand to make it look like I hadn't just been having a small crisis "What's up?"

"So they called me back about that concert gig... and uh, well. I got the job Nat. I start in two days. Two days... and I'll be traveling around the freaking world with my favorite band I can't even... I can't even process this right now." Scarlet's hands shook as she moved to sit down in the edge of my bed, her fiery red hair falling around her shoulders as I scooted myself next to her.
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Exactly two days later, I was standing by the driver's side of my car waving to Scarlet as she walked through the doors of the airport. That afternoon, when she had told me about getting the job, we'd sat in my room until it got dark outside. We hadn't even left once Alex and Logan got back from the venue, hadn't even answered when they yelled up the stairs that they'd brought home pizza. We'd just sat on the floor and talked, about life, about how excited we were... and I had totally forgotten about Logan. For those few hours, I had been almost completely worry free and it had been amazing.  A loud honk snapped me back to reality, and I wiped my eyes before climbing back into my car and quickly heading back home. I knew what to do...
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I immediately headed up to my room, hurrying past the living room where I was certain Alex and Logan were watching tv while they discussed the final details of their first concert that was happening tomorrow. I think Alex had tried getting my attention, but I hadn't felt like being around Logan, who I'd noticed sitting on the end of the couch with his legs stretched out on the coffee table in front of him.

"Well I heard there was a secret chord..."

I paused, tweaking the tuning of my acoustic guitar just barely before I quietly kept singing, completely unaware that Logan was on his way up the stairs...

"That David played and it pleased the Lord
But you don't really care for music, do you?
Well it goes like this, the fourth, the fifth
The minor fall and the major lift
The baffled king composing Hallelujah..."

I again hesitated, drawing in a deep breath and closing my eyes, playing a few random chords before completely losing myself in the song...

*Logan's POV*

The notes that had drifted down the stairs had caused me to make an excuse that I needed to use the bathroom, and I very quietly snuck up the stairs, towards the beautiful sounds that I assumed must be Natalie listening to one of her vinyls. Maybe I could get her to listen to me... maybe this was the perfect moment to talk to her about how I felt.

But it was her.

Natalie was sitting on the edge of her bed, a Gibson acoustic guitar across her lap, her delicate fingers expertly playing the notes, her eyes closed tight as she hummed the second verse of the song.

This was the most vulnerable I'd ever seen anyone. So completely lost in the moment that she didn't even flinch when I nudged the door open a little further. I had to see more of this... more of her.

My heart was pounding in my chest, my hands shaking against my sides. I took in a sharp breath when her eyes snapped open, but luckily she didn't see me, and I slowly backed down the hallway. I shut the door to their small bathroom and leaned forwards against the counter after splashing some cold water in my face "Calm down Logan... she's just a girl..." I muttered to myself, under my breath. My hands still trembled as I dried them off and made my way back downstairs.

But I was lying to myself.

I was absolutely, irrevocably in love with this girl.