Logan

27. Ain't Fine

*Damien's POV*

I walked down the steps to hear Alex humming, making breakfast. I strapped my hair into a ponytail, and when my boots made contact with the hardwood, he turned with the spatula in his hand. He put his free hand to his chest, "Fuck man... you scared me."

"Morning Alex, do we have any coffee?" He looked up at me, and his eyes were filled with worry, but yet he still found a cup and poured some coffee inside. I broke the awkward silence.

"No, we're not having sex. No, we're not flirting, or in some weird secret tryst, we're just friends. I know she loves Logan, I'm not that kind of guy." I took a sip of the coffee and Alex put his hand out, shaking his head.

"I didn't think you were that guy, Damien. And forgive me, but it's a little awkward when someone I barely know comes out of my sister's bedroom when her boyfriend is halfway across the country." I grimaced, stirring some more sugar into my coffee.

"I was fully clothed, and I was with Kellan last night." I looked at Alex, noticing him clearly stiffen at the sound of Kellan's name. "I don't know what AB told you, but he is bad at sex." Shit, I didn't make it any better.

"AB didn't really tell me anything about his exes, actually." He slid some eggs toward me, and I gladly accepted the breakfast he was offering by devouring them immediately. When he told me that though, I stopped mid-chew.

"I'm so sorry," I swallowed, "I thought he might have said something, I hope I didn't make it worse."

Alex shook his head, "It's okay."

I really wanted to ask the questions rolling around in my head, but I wasn't sure how Alex would respond. I just decided to go with it. "Alex, have you and AB, you know."

Alex's eyes failed to meet mine, and that's when I knew, but he still answered. "Not that it's any of your business, but no."

"Why not?" I took another sip of my coffee. "I mean, I don't mean to pry, but I'm open ears." I sat back in my seat, watching him as his cheeks flushed.

"I, uh, I have issues. As many times as he's driven me absolutely crazy, I just can't relax."

"Haven't you had a lot of boyfriends, though? I mean, you had to have had sex at some point." His shoulders tensed.

"Promise me you won't tell anyone?" I nodded and he went on "I had a kiss with one of my classmates in an elevator, he was already out. But I wasn't, officially, Natalie was the only one that knew, so we kept it a secret from everyone. I had never had sex before that, even with a woman. Girls were always willing, but it just didn't feel right, you know." He looked at me again before looking away to tell the story. "It was before we graduated, and we decided to celebrate. I told him I'd never done it before, so we... I, just couldn't really get into it. I thought it was me, and I apologized. I mean, we still kept going, but it was...you know."

I stopped him, feeling like I was going to explode. "Wait, wait. Just a second, so you weren't relaxed, you weren't prepared, and he kept going? What a fucking jerk." I paused for a moment, my knuckles were white, my jaw clenched "So what did you tell AB?"

"I just told him that I wasn't very experienced, but every time we've gotten hot and heavy, I just can't. I get..." He stopped, running a hand through his hair. He closed his eyes before talking again "I want to, I really do. I want to so bad, when I see his look of disappointment, it just kills me. Seeing the two of you react to Kellan, I don't know how to measure up to that." He looked up from his plate, biting his lip.

I scoffed and walked to his side of the counter. His hands were on the counter, one of them in a fist. I raised an eyebrow, "Believe me when I say this, Alex." Alex looked up at me, his eyes locked onto mine waiting for my response. "It was terrible. When you actually do have great sex for the first time, it's..." I sighed, "it's so amazing that it's impossible to describe. If you're honest with AB, I'm sure that you'll have a better try this time around." When I glanced up at him, I felt how close I was to him. I smiled for a moment before I heard a voice.

"Where's Natalie, and why the fuck are you here?"