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I Don't Care [Roceit]

This song inspired me hardcore. It helped with my bad mood today... I'm sorry for not being enough.

STORYTIME!

Deceit knows he's a bad person. He knows he has no other purpose than to do something that Thomas's morality and the very core of his being doesn't want to do. That's why he always saw himself as a villain and played the part. He surrounded himself with sides like him, becoming both the puppet and the one tugging at the strings. He threw himself into the dark sides and became a slimy boy. He loved the way he became. Being bad felt so good and fulfilling. It was like he was playing into his true nature and being himself, even if that was being a sleazy Disney villain a.k.a an off brand Doctor Facilier. But then something horrible happened to him: he fell in love.

Yes. He fell in love with Virgil. That's a lie. He fell in love with Patton. Nope, that's not true either. He could list countless names of people like Logan, Remus, Remy, Dr. Picani, that one GPS people hadn't given a name to and that one glasses denial guy from another Sanders Short on Twitter. All of those would be lies. Deceit just hides the truth and doesn't tell anyone that... he loves Roman. That's also a lie. But where was the lie? Well, that's not going to be revealed in just Words. 

Deceit was sitting next to Roman as her steummed the guitar. Deceit watched him learn how to play different notes by strumming specific chords and holding down others on the staff of the guitar? Was it a staff or a handle? The long rectangle part of the guitar. Roman was learning how to play it because he was bored and needed something creative to do while Logan took over dominance of the mind while Thomas did some research on some trans Greek myth that he wanted to put in a video. It was a reasons to smile and he wanted to find something with trans positivity. Talyn mentioned Joan talked about it once and now Logan had a mission. Deceit was very angry about this whole ordeal. Lie. He liked it. It meant he could spend time with his boyfriend.

"Roman, that sounds absolutely dreadful. Can you play some more?"

Roman sideways glanced at him, sort of in his own calm little trance-like state. He gets like this when he was so focused on a task. He gained this sort of tunnel vision of determination. Deceit found that sort of drive extremely attractive. Roman was passionate about everything he did and always followed through with what he boasts with evidence that he can perform a task. Besides, he was the only person who actually listened to him sometimes. He was right. Deceit doesn't only speak in lies. It takes self control. He just felt too sleepy right now from listening his beautiful attempt at playing a song. Roman nodded and tried strumming multiple chords in a row, a pattern that sounded familiar. What song was this? Deceit honestly didn't remember at all.

"You know I don't care, right?"

Roman suddenly said out of nowhere, not stooping his hands from memorizing the patterns of both his wrist flicking and hitting certain chords whilst his fingers moved to joke down different strings. Deceit was genuinely confused. What could Roman be referring to? Had it something to do with the song at all? Deceit remained quiet, listening to the background music of whatever tune was stuck in Roman's mind, which in turn would be stuck in Thomas's. He just smiled his normal devilish smile. Wow, he didn't know! 

"I definately know."

"That you're a dark side. That you're a bad guy. I don't care. You're sneaky and sarcastic and I know Virgil hates you for whatever reason. I get that you're sketchy and you shouldn't be trusted all the time. I get that. I'm not stupid like everyone thinks I am. But what I do know is that I love you. There are many great things about you. Like how you purr when I scratch your chin you start to purr and when you're tired you just murmur random lies that are so obviously not true and then you say that you hate me before you go to sleep and I just say I love you too. You also have a really keen fashion sense and you're very grounded on yours ideals. You're very smart and you love theater just as much as I do and you're amazingly smart. You teach me new things every day. I don't care if you're supposed to be evil, you'll always be a good guy to me. Even if you don't want to be a good guy. You'll still be my love."