Love Me or Hate Me (The Sexy Hunk Series Book 2)

Chapter 11 : Contemplating

Call me coward...

Call me insane...

Call me the most foolish person on earth...

But is it wrong to protect my self from getting hurt?

JASMINE

Nandito na ko ngayon sa Boracay. Sa station 1 kami nagstay sa isang private hotel. Kadarating lang din namin. Nakaoff yung phone ko kanina at ngayon ko lang naisipang buksan. When I turn on my phone, a lot of messages came. Most of the messages came from my friends asking me where I am and why didn't I inform them that I will be gone for a week.

Sa dami ng messages nila Amber, Miley at Bree ay hindi ko na alam kung anong una kong babasahin at sino ang una kong rereplyan. Nakareceive ako ng message na may nagleave ng voice message sa akin. I saw the number and it came from Lance. Kinabahan ako. Hindi ko alam kung dapat ko bang pakinggan ito dahil baka mamalayan ko na lang yung sarili kong tumatakbo pabalik sa kanya. I decided to listen to it kasi baka pagsisihan ko.

Voice Message from Lance:

Long silence....

Long sigh coming from Lance...

"I have send you a couple of messages Jas. I was damned worried. Ni hindi ka nagpaalam na aalis ka pala ngayon. Kung hindi ko pa nalaman sa manager ko na kaibigan pala ng manager mo... ay hindi ko pa malalaman na nasa Boracay ka."

Long silence again...

"I thought that we're okay since yesterday. I felt good after the kiss. Don't get me wrong, I am not abusing you physically or what. Ayokong isipin mo na kagaya ka ng ibang babae na dumaan na sa buhay ko. I am not a maniac for Christ's sake. Ayoko ding madaliin ka because you told me that you need to think things through..."

Long silence...

"It hurts that you left after what happen... is it your way of running away from me? Is it your way of telling me that what we have is not something special for you? Kasi ganun yung nararamdaman ko right now. Are you telling me to just forget about what happen? or do you want me to stop bothering you? "

another sigh from Lance

"Funny, kasi ngayon ko lang naramdaman to'. I seriously like you Jas... or maybe...this can be love? Pero nakakarma na ata ako eh...it hurts that you are treating me like this. It feels like you dump me big time!. Ayokong magalit, ayokong magtampo, ayokong magtanong kasi alam kong para sayo, wala namang tayo. If this is your way of sending me a way, then you won. I won't bother you again. I won't pester you again kaya wag ka ng mag-alala. Thank you for the couple of weeks that you made me happy. I'll treasure that. For now, I will just let you be."

End of voicemail

Hindi ko namamalayan na umiiyak na pala ako. Hinalungkat ko yung phone ko para tingnan kung may mga message siya at madami pala siyang messages sa akin.

From Lance <3:

Where are you Jas? I am trying to call you?

From Lance <3:

Are you not going to school? Are you sick? Do you want me to fetch you?

From Lance <3:

Okay... I'm so damn worried now. You are not answering... are you mad at me?

From Lance <3: