Stripped (Moonsun AU) (Stripped Series #1) [UNDER EDITORIAL]

Chapter 30

Yongsun POV

Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) is a condition characterized by difficulties regulating emotion. This means that people who experience BPD feel emotions intensely and for extended periods of time, and it is harder for them to return to a stable baseline after an emotionally triggering event.

Ang lumabas na result sa laptop ni Yongsun habang nagsesearch ito ng mga possible illness na related kay Byul.

Sexual sadism disorder is the condition of experiencing sexual arousal in response to the extreme pain, suffering or humiliation of others. Several other terms have been used to describe the condition,
and the condition may overlap with other conditions that involve inflicting pain.

"Unnie, what's with the face? Sobrang serious." wika ni Hyejin nang makitang sobrang seryoso ng mukha ni Yongsun habang nakatingin ito sa laptop.

"Hmm, can I ask some serious questions? What are your thoughts about Borderline Personality Disorder and Sexual Sadism Disorder?" seryosong tanong ni Yongsun sa dalawa.

Napakamot naman bigla si Hyejin at nagisip isip muna si Wheein bago tuluyang sumagot. "Unnie, I had a slightest idea about Borderline Personality, but I do think people who suffer with the illness, often lie a lot for personal gain and pleasure. Well, most of them are basically the most obsessive ones based on my observation."

Tumigil muna si Wheein ng ilang saglit bago muling magsalita. "They have a twisted relationship with themselves. The fear of abandonment and the struggle of managing their emotions."

Napapalakpak naman si Hyejin sakanya at nakangangang nakatingin sa kanyang girlfriend. "We stan an intellectual." wika nito.

Napaisip naman bigla si Yongsun at hindi nga nagkakalayong tumutugma ito sa mga kinikilos at mga desisyon ni Byul sa buhay.

Byul lied a lot when it comes to her girlfriend, her longtime girlfriend. Hindi aware ang girlfriend nito sa mga pinag gagawa nila behind her back. At mas lalong hindi aware si Yongsun dahil pinakilala niya lang naman ito sakanya bilang isang schoolmate.

And about sa obsessive ones naman na minention din ni Wheein, may pagka obsessive nga si Byul lalo na pag tinotopak ito.

"Whee, okay. So, sabihin na nating.. for example. Nagsusuffer nga siya sa ganong illness. Is it seasonal? I mean, hindi naman all the time umaatake yung ganung sakit, diba?" seryosong tugon ni Yongsun.

"Not all the time, unless... there is a reason para ma-trigger yung gaanong behavior nila." mabilisang sagot ni Wheein sakanya.

Hindi inatake si Byul nung sakit niya the last time na magkasama sila. Hindi kaya?

Natagalan bago magisip si Yongsun bago iprocess ang lahat ng nangyari. She was so sure na galit si Byul dahil sa truth or dare na ginawa nila 'nong araw ng birthday niya pero hindi naman ito tinopak noong kagabihan.

"What do you mean there is a reason?" naguguluhang tanong ni Yongsun.

Uminom muna ito ng frappe na binili niya sa starbucks bago sagutin ang tanong ni Yongsun. Nakatulala namang nakatitig lang si Hyejin sakanila dahil hindi ito makarelate. "As I mentioned earlier, unnie. Most of them are basically the most obsessive ones. Kung ano man ang nagtitrigger ng ganung behavior nila. Obviously, it would be jealousy. They can't accept the fact na they are replaceable when it comes to relationships."

Jinyoung!

Ang unang taong pumasok sa isip ni Yongsun.

Nagseselos si Byul kay Jinyoung everytime na nagkakaroon sila ng interaction.

"I get it. I get it now." napahinga ng malalim si Yongsun dahil sa nalaman niya.

Tinaasan naman siya ng kilay ni Hyejin dahil hindi parin nito magets ang pinagsasabi ni Yongsun. "Eh unnie, diba may binanggit ka pang isa? Ano nga ulit yun? Yung sadism chuchu?"

Natawa naman si Wheein sakanya at tinama nalang ang kanyang girlfriend. "Sexual Sadism Disorder?" sagot ni Wheein.

"Yeah right, so any thoughts about it? Ikaw, Hyejin? Baka may idea ka?" wika ni Yongsun sakanya.

Napakamot naman ulit ito ng ulo at nagisip kunwari ng malalim kahit wala talaga siyang idea sa disorder na 'yon. "Baka sadista lang talaga sila kaya ganun? Or trip lang nila manakit?" naguguluhang sabi nito.

Tumawa naman si Wheein sakanya at siya na ang sumagot para kay Hyejin. "Ahh, this illness. There has to be a reason why they became like that. Probably, a childhood trauma or some tragic past."

Bigla namang naalala ni Yongsun na wala pa siyang kaalam alam sa nakaraan ni Byul at wala din itong kaalam alam sa nakaraan niya. Hindi pa nila lubos na kilala ang isa't isa.

"But it doesn't mean na just because they're sadist eh bigla bigla nalang silang mananakit ng ibang tao. It doesn't work that way. Kailangan ito ng consent. Consent galing sa isang tao na tinotolerate yung pagkasadista nila. Masochist, I say. If you're aware with one." dagdag ni Wheein na nagpatigil bigla kay Yongsun.

So, she's a masochist?

"You mean, martir?" biglang sagot ni Hyejin.

Tumango si Wheein at muling nagsalita. "Well, honestly. It's more than that, as in sobra pa sa pagka martir. Both physically and emotionally."

Is it because of Yongsun past?

Kaya naging perfect match sila ni Byul from opposing with one another?

She tolerated Byul's actions kahit sobrang nakakadegrade na ito ng pagkatao.

She didn't care, kasi somehow she liked what Byul did to her.

Kayang kaya niyang ibaba ang sarili niya when it comes to Byul.

Irony, her past experiences led her to be on the top list of one the most successful entrepreneur.

She was abused verbally, sexually and physically. And she used that experience as a gain para magtake advantage ng ibang tao.

Not until she reach the top at hindi na siya maabot ng ibang tao.

But when Byul suddenly came into the picture, ang Yongsun na gustong maghiganti para itaas ang sarili ay naglaho na lamang na parang bula nang makilala niya si Byul.

Maybe, her past experiences also led her to be in the position when it comes to love.

The masochist, as she is and the sadist she knew.

"Unnie, okay ka lang? Bakit mo nga pala naitanong bigla yung about sa mga disorder na yan?" nagtatakang tanong ni Wheein nang hindi na ito muling nagsalita.

"Yeah I just realized, I'm a masochist." diretsong pagkakasabi ni Yongsun na mas lalong pinagtaka ng dalawa.

Uminom na muna si Hyejin ng tubig bago ito magsalita ulit.

"And Byul is a sadist." dugtong niya.

Bigla namang naibuga ni Hyejin ang kanyang iniinom na tubig.