No Control-n.h

Chapter 14

JADES POV

After I leave Harry, I go back to my flat. Vanessa is there, obviously still in shock about whats happened so I decide she should be the first person I talk to.

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Its now day 1 after me and Harry had sex. I'm so confused with my feelings right now. I know I've made amends with Vanessa but I'm yet to with everyone else.

I have to wake up early for class because we have an assignment. It has to be with people from a different class and I don't know anyone apart from Cara and Lucy.

The teacher decides to put me with Lucy because apparently it's healthy to bond over music so I got landed with someone else who hates me.

I'm still laid in bed and I have half an hour before that class starts. Rolling myself out and dragging myself to the bathroom to brush my teeth, I look in the mirror and I need a serious touch of make-up today, talk about 50 shades of grey bags under my eyes.

I stroll over to my closet, feeling slightly more fresh after washing my face and begin deciding on today's outfit. I choose an oversized white t shirt to go with my black, ripped mom jeans.

I shove a brush through my locks and then slip on my black converse on before applying some light make-up and heading out of the door with my phone in hand.

"Headed to music?" a voice says from behind me.

I jump in fright, "you scared me half to death," I laugh, turning to face...Niall.

"Uh yeah i'm headed there," I smile, anxiously.

After walking together in silence for about ten minutes, he re-starts the conversation.

"Me and Cara split up," he mutters, sliding his hands in his pockets.

"She knows," he replies, looking at his feet.

"I know, she over heard me pouring my heart out to Nessa," I admit, feeling the guilt wash over me once more.

"She said," he replies.

I actually make it to music class in one piece, I was either going to cry of guilt or awkwardness. I take my seat next to Lucy, who looks kind of down today and doesn't seem to have any expression to her.

The door flies open at last minute and a very tired looking Cara rushes in and sits herself down. She has big round circles under her eyes, no make-up, her hair pulled up messily, and a t-shirt and joggers thrown on her. She looks like she hasn't slept a wink. But i'd be the same.

Cara sends a death glare my way, causing me to turn back around and pay attention.

Our teacher orders me and Lucy to go first.

We are singing Read All About by Emile Sande, it's a beautiful song so it should get us the marks we need but throughout the performance, I'm the only one putting in any effort and Lucy seems to be singing as if she's bored.

Luckily, this won't effect my grade because we're being graded separate but just singing together.

"Miss Hale, I've given you a C+. The reason for that is because you put absolutely no effort or emotion into it whatsoever. But on the up side you sang it very well," our professor informs as Lucy rolls her eyes.

"Miss Thirlwall, i've given you an A+, very well done. Just what everyone else should be aiming to," she beams and I feel very pleased with myself.

After everyone's performed I head to the lounge for a much needed coffee.

"Mind if I join you?" Niall asks, as I'm sipping my coffee.

I nod in reply, even though I really don't want him to.

After about 5 minutes of sitting in pure silence, Niall finally speaks up as I bet he can tell I'm not willing to.

"So, Jade, I was wondering if you would maybe like to hang out sometime?" he asks.

My grip tightens around my coffee cup and I look for a way to escape this conversation, I am furious with him right now, why would he do this after we've just broke Cara's heart?

"Niall, are you being serious?" I ask.

"Well, yeah, that's why I asked you," he chuckles.

"I'm not hanging out with you. Cara would be even more hurt than she is now and I don't wanna be responsible again," I scoff, slamming my coffee down and storming off.

Suddenly, as I'm making my way down the hallway, I bump into Zayn.

"Oh hey Zayn," I smile.

"Hey Jade, I need to talk to you, I was actually coming to find you," he says.

My stomach sinks, is he going to talk to me about Niall? Oh shit he could even want to talk to me about Harry.

"Ok, lets go to mine," I reply and take him to our flat.

Once we arrive and I get myself comfortable on the sofa, Zayn sits next to me ready to talk.

"Ok so, i'm doing this from the goodness of my heart. And i'm hoping you'll appreciate it, " he begins, making me feel very socially awkward.

"Niall really likes you. He never shuts up about you and it's kinda fucking irritating. But he's so upset that he's made the mistake of using Cara that he really isn't himself. Niall needs you to just give him a chance. Please, just one," Zayn pleads.

I shake my head, l can't do it. It just doesn't feel right.

"I can't Zayn. You wouldn't understand," I sigh.

He nods in disappointment and gets up to leave.

"Bye," I mutter, slamming the door after him.