No Control-n.h

Chapter 67- "what will we do?"

JADES POV

I sit on the bed frozen to my spot. I've just accepted a place in University when my boyfriend has managed to let me come on tour with them and I've messed everything up.

"Its amazing isn't it?" he cries.

"Yeah," I mumble, feeling tears roll down my cheeks.

"Whats wrong love?" he ask.

"Ni, I accepted my place in University," I choke, letting more tears fall.

The happiness in his eyes fades, the smile on his face drops and he stares at me with a blank expression.

"But I....I don't understand I thought you wanted to be here with me?" he says and I can see the tears forming in his little blue eyes.

"I do Niall but Simon called from your phone at the hospital and he told me what he was making you do and I just...I guess I thought you didn't love me enough to stay and I accepted it," I admit, wiping my eyes.

"I fucking love you more than anything, more than anyone and I would never even consider that," he insists, wiping away my tears.

"And I love you even more but I'm not allowed to change anything Ni. Its not possible, it was in the list of Terms and Conditions," I explain, feeling my stomach drop.

"But there has got to be something we can do," he cries and I see the tiny droplets of tears fall eventually.

"Niall i'm so sorry," I mutter, sitting in his lap and crying into his shoulder.

"Its your future," he mumbles into my neck.

"I thought you were my future," I whisper, squeezing my eyes shut.

"I still can be," he says.

"But Niall the University is in Wales," I tell him.

"What?" he cries, pulling away.

"I didn't know until I looked at the address after i'd sent my email," I say.

"But how am I going to live without you for such a long time and you be so far away?" he asks and it kills me to see him crying so much.

"You can. You are probably better off without me Ni," I sigh, putting my head in my hands.

"No. No I am not," he says sternly and lifts my head up so I'm looking at him.

"I will never be 'better off' without you, ever," he says pulling my back into him.

"What will we do?" I ask holding onto him.

"I don't know," he mutters.

LOUIS POV

I've been ringing Niall's phone for god knows how long and he still hasn't picked up.

"Lou has he answered you yet?" Vanessa asks.

"No, but we need to talk about something," I sigh, sitting down and holding onto her hand.

"Anything," she nodd.

"Simon is making us carry on with the tour. I have nothing in my power to stay here and stay on the label. I have to leave i'm sorry," I explain.

"But I don't understand how will I see you?" she ask.

I open my mouth to speak but what am I supposed to say?

Realization hits her and she sort of falls back into the pillow a little.

"Oh, that's right, I won't see you at all will I?" she says, her voice cracking throughout.

"I'm sorry, I don't want to leave you here and you have to believe that but I have no other choice," I say, feeling my eyes fill up and when I look back at her I can see her small tears escaping her eyes as she looks at me.

"Louis please go," she mutters, looking into her lap.

"No Vanessa please don't do this," I beg.

"Go," she cries, breaking down into tears and I get up and leave the room tears pouring from my eyes too.

I look through the window and she's laid in bed droplets of tears falling onto her bed sheets and she tries to wipe her tears away but they won't stop, it broke my heart to watch her.

JADES POV

"Ni what will I do without you?" I ask as we lay in bed, me snuggled into his side as we stare at the ceiling.

"You won't be without me. Why can't you come with me?" he says, biting his lip holding back more tears.

"I hate this, but what if we aren't forever? I can't live my life full of 'ifs' I need a back up plan Ni," I explain not caring that I am still crying into him.

"But we are," he mutters, putting his hands to his eyes as he can't help but let tears fall.

"I know that but we might not be together forever," I say sadly, just the thought of marrying someone else sent my stomach in knots.

"Of course we will. Jade I won't love someone else the way I love you, I will never look at someone else like you," he insists.

"Neither will I," I admit.

"When are you leaving?" he asks.

"Next month," I say.

"I have this last couple of weeks to say goodbye?" he says, his voice cracking.

"No, not goodbye Niall, it will never be goodbye ok?" I say, looking up at him.

He nods, pressing a kiss to my lips.

I hate this so much.

*Author's Note*

Sorry its really short and sad but I didn't want to drone on and on about it, please vote!