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Chapter 83- "i've lost her"

JADES POV

My stomach is huge and I mean huge. It feels like i've attached a balloon to my chest.

"Your little baby is growing Jade," Acacia smiles, tapping my stomach.

"I know. I'm gonna need some more clothes," I sigh.

"Let's go shopping!" Acacia squeals.

"Good idea. But it's Saturday it will be so busy," I groan.

"Oh well. You'll be shopping in maternity so it won't be as bad," Acacia shrugs.

"I guess so. I'll just get myself ready and we'll go," I smile, getting off the sofa and walking to the bathroom for a shower.

Once showered and my teeth brushed, I make my way over to my wardrobe and look for something quite stretchy to fit over my stomach.

Occasionally I pick up my phone and check for any calls or texts but as per usual, not one.

I haven't heard from Niall for months. He just stopped calling, he would text every now and then but we lost touch, he became more distant.

Of course I saw him in magazines and online but he never got in touch. He's too busy for me, I don't even think we're getting married anymore.
I've kept the ring, its in my jewellery box on my dresser but it never comes out.

It left my finger about two months ago and I would cry myself to sleep every night about how coming here was a mistake. It was all a big mistake.

After Cara left, I haven't spoken to any of them at all, I've seen pictures of Darcy on Lucy's twitter and pictures of her and the boys.

Why was I the one left behind?
I know they're all travelling together but I am his fiancé, his child's mother.

He doesn't know about the baby, he's made it clear I don't matter to him anymore. Why would the baby?
It hurts, in fact it kills me that he doesn't even take a short time out of his day to even call and say that he loves me.

He probably doesn't love me anymore who am I kidding?

I look down and notice droplets of water on my dresser and as I look at myself in the mirror I realise i'm crying again.

"Why did he do this?" I whisper to myself, squeezing my eyes shut as streams of tears fall.

I put my head in my hands letting out loud sobs, he's just someone I used to know.

NIALLS POV

I look at my phone, not a call or a text.
I can't believe I lost her already.

Suddenly, my curtains are drawn back.

"Hey Niall," Cara smiles.

"What do you want?" I snap.

"Niall are you seriously still mad at me?" Cara questions.

"I have a right to be don't you think?" I glare.

"Niall I know you wanted me to get you her number but it's your career that is on the line. Imagine how the boys would have felt if I'd killed their career," Cara cries.

"I'd still have my fiancé Cara! She'd still be calling, telling me she loves and misses me. But no! I asked you to get me her number, one small thing and you couldn't even fucking manage to do that for me," I shout.

A tear drips from her eye as she viciously wipes it away.

"Simon told us that if we even so much as text her, he will cut the contract and One Direction will be done. Do you really think i'd risk my boyfriend's future for that? He erased her details from all our phones, he made us do it we had no choice Niall. I went to visit her months ago and she seemed so happy there so don't you worry Niall. Jade's fine where she is, this is your future you have to think about," she hisses, storming out.

I scream into my pillow, tears of frustration flushing down my face as I pull at my hair.

"Niall what's going on?" Liam asks from the door.

I don't answer him, I just rest my head against the board of the bed and cry.

"Liam i've lost her," I mutter.

"It'll be ok Niall. If it's meant to be she'll come back," Liam tells me.

I haven't rang her, told her I love and miss her, in months.
She'll hate my guts, I shouldn't have let Simon do this.

She deserves so much better, the amount of times I have let her down, I just can't even bring myself to think how she must be feeling.

JADES POV

I feel completely and utterly useless. 

*Author's Note*

Heeeyyy. Sorry this chapter is reallllyyyy short and crappy but I needed to basically tell the story in a way that was (hopefully) interesting but not too long.
I hope you liked it even though it's kind of sad.
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