No Control-n.h

Chapter 64- "you can't do this"

NIALLS POV

We pull up outside the tour bus and not one of us dare move, none of us want to tell the girls what Simon said we don't have the guts.

"Ready?" Zayn sighs, opening the car door.

"I guess," I shrug.

We open the door of the bus after getting out of the car and I immediately get crushed in a hug by Jade.

"Hey," she smiles.

"Hi love," I mutter, running my hand through my hair and breathing in her scent.

"What's wrong?" she asks, her hand resting on my arm.

"Nothing, i'm fine just tired," I lie, going into the living room where everyone else is sitting.

"How was the meeting?" Lucy asks Harry as he sits down, Darcy sleeping in her arms.

"It was uh, it was just a normal meeting," Harry lies, I can tell he's about to flip just by his fists clenching in a tight ball.

"What did Simon say?" she asks.

"I can't remember," he shrugs.

"You must remember it was only a minute ago," she laughs.

"Well I don't alright?" he cries, storming out of the room.

Lucy looks taken aback, almost as if she's about to cry at Harry's sudden outburst.

"He's just tired Luce," I say trying to comfort her.

"Sure he is," she sighs, taking Darcy into the bedroom and into her cot.

I sit down on the sofa next to Liam, watching him look off into a space just like Zayn.

"Niall, can I talk to you for a minute?" Jade asks.

"Ok," I say as she pulls me to the bedroom.

We sit down on the bed and she crosses her legs fiddling with her bracelet before looking up at me.

"Niall is everything really ok?" she asks.

"Of course it is, why wouldn't it be?" I say, grabbing her hand.

"Because all you guys are suddenly so quiet and almost sad kind of. I don't know. Was the meeting bad with Simon?" she questions.

"No, you don't need to worry about that love," I smile.

"I can't help it, I'm just thinking of Vanessa and if you have to leave us for the tour," she mumbles making the knot in my stomach get bigger.

"I know, we're trying our best," I slip up.

"Trying your best to do what?" she asks, her eyes widening.

What do I say?

"You guys up for pizza?" Cara interrupts from the doorway.

"Yeah, i'll order it," I offer, jumping up and exiting the room trying to avoid Jade's questions.

I order three pizzas, one pepperoni, a meat feast and a margarita that I put on the coffee table in the living room and we all sit around it talking and laughing.
It's just like old times.

I don't want to leave this, I don't want to leave the girls, most importantly I don't want to leave her.
She's my world but have I got a choice?

We end up bringing all the quilts and pillows in with us and all get snuggled up to watch some Disney movies.
Jade sits in between my legs under our cover, her head rests on my chest as I play with her hair.

I see her smile and her laugh following close after and she tilts her head back to look at me and I return a smile.
She puckers her lips asking for a kiss and I grant her wish pecking her lightly.

Halfway through the movie I realize Harry isn't in here with us.

"Where's Haz?" I ask.

"Bedroom," Lucy replies.

I lift Jade from my legs and walk into the bedroom to Harry to find him holding Darcy in his arms as he cries.

"Harry it will be ok, we're not backing down," I say, sitting beside him.

"Niall, I can't abandon my little girl and Lucy for concerts. What do I do?" he asks.

"I don't know, I can't even bring myself to tell Jade what Simon's suggesting," I sigh.

"No matter what he says I'm not going anywhere and neither are they. Its so fucking unfair," He shouts, making Darcy jump and wake up crying.

"Ssh," he mumbles, rocking her gently, tears still dropping from his cheeks.

I leave the room, unable to watch and go into the bathroom dialing Simon's number.

"You can't do this," I say, as soon as he picks up.

"Excuse me?" He replies.

"You can't tear Harry's family apart for a tour Simon its not right and more importantly you're not just tearing Harry's little family up you're tearing all of us apart and we are a family," I say through gritted teeth.

"Harry doesn't care about family Niall," Simon scoffs.

"How have you got the nerve to say that? How would you like it if we told you to choose between your job or family when your job means just as much to you as they do?" I hiss.

"I simply wouldn't bother listening to you Niall. Have a nice day," he says, ending the phone call.

I slam my fists against the marble at the side of the sink, breathing deeply and running my hands through my hair pulling at it in frustration.

JADES POV

I need to tell him.
How will he take it?
How will I tell the person I love i'm leaving?
He means the world to me and I can't believe i'm doing this but its only for a year, no longer, I can spend the other with him again and it will be fine.
I can't hide it from him.
I need to tell Niall i'm going to University.