The Vows we made. The promises we keep (Trilogy)

chapter 86

2 months later

Kayla's P.O.V

I cried, as i stood on top of the L on the hollywood sign..getting ready to jump......i cant take life anymore, im careless.....two.....two......two lives that i was too irresposible to hold..........i lost the baby.........another baby..............i was held in the hospital for 3 days, because i fainted in trey's house.....he was upset.....he stayed with me in the hospital and august didnt come once........whats the point of living..........i stepped closer and the breeze hit my face, i looked down and saw all the trees and stuff, i prayed before i took another step....i hope one day everyone forgives me.....my kids......my mom........i turned around and put my arms out

???:KAYLA

i looked and amy was sitting in the o

I closed my eyes as i tear dropped

Me: I CANT DO THIS ANYMORE

Amy: kayla please mami dont move

I started crying and in no time amy's arms wrapped around me pulling me away

Me: i cant.......*cried* .......i cant

I hated myself for what happened, i hated everyone too......

Amy: shhhh

Me: he's gone..........i was gonna have another baby boy......and hes gone

Amy:kayla i am so sorry, but hun you cannot do this ......theres so many people that love you and what chu do....you have a family mamita you can not just throw it all away

I looked at her and she wiped my tears

Amy: my baby father...........hes gone.........and i have to raise my baby by myself.....buts its because of her why i chosed to ride it out....

Me:*sobb*

She held me for so long, and without my shoes bare footed and standing in jeans and a tank top i was cold.....

Amy: let me take you home love

She walked me to her car and i sat back and thought of how i almost ended my life, i was serious to......i guess i really am selfish because i didnt think of how anyone would feel if i was really gone

Me: thank you

Amy: no problem..........you can do it kayla.....i dont know you that well but i know you enough to say that your stonger than this

Me:*half smiles*

I got out and walked to my house, i stepped on so many pieces of glass but didnt feel it......august answered and looked at me

August: where have you been

I moved past him walkin up the stairs

August: where da hell was you at

Me: august stop yellin

August: den answa me

I went in the room and he followed i got in the shower and after wards i put my pajamas on and laid down, but.....nooooo, august had to come back in

August's P.O.V

Dat was it, shes gone fa a whole week nd come back nd try ta go to sleep,

Me: where da fuck was you at nd dis is my last time

She got up and stood infront of me, her eyes were red and she pulled her shirt up, showing be stitches a stright line, very small doe, but dat aint da point.......ha stomach was small, she walked towards me slapping pushing and shovin

Kayla: how does it feel!!!............how does it feel to get what chu want!!!! YOU WANTED THE BABY GONE AND THERE

she punched my chest and i just stared straight

Kayla: MY BABY IS GONEEE

She cried, it hurt me........more then yall think.........i never wanted dis ta happen neva she slapped me again so hard still punching me

Me: stop

Kayla: its all your fault............I HATE YOUUU

me: you dont mean that stop

Kayla: I HATE YOU SO MUCH I WANT YOU TO DIE

me:* closes my eyes*

She hit me again and again and again, i grabbed her arms wrapping them around her body, pulling her close to me

Me: babey im sorry

I said, i was hurt to........her second kid....but i wont take the blame

Kayla: *crying* hes gonnnneeeeee.........whhhyyy meee

I held her head on my chest, as we slid down to the floor, with me holding her in my arms...

Me: its not chur fault neither Kay

I was holding her for so long she cried so much she started choking.....i rubbed her back thinking.....i just want this all to go away, why cant it just vanish and be gone, i thought kissing her forehead..I know I said I ain't care...but cmon na.....she lost anotha one