The Vows we made. The promises we keep (Trilogy)

chapter 87

Kayla's P.O.V

I woke and august was next to me.....last night was just crazy, but i cant get the fact that the baby is gone

August:*pulls me down*

He wrapped his arms around me tightly, i thought he was sleeping so i just put ny head down and kept thinking

August:*raspy* you ready ta talk now

I turned around facing him and looked in his eyes and nodded....

August: whats goin on.........how you feeling

Me: irresponsible

August: why

Me: my second time.......four, aug i couldve had 4 children and i lost two

August: .......you count your problems kay.........you count them instead of counting what your blessed wif..

Me: i know....i just cant believe it

August: i want chu ta know dat......,even doe i was pissed off, i wanted chu ta have dat babey kay

Me: really

August: yeah

Me:...........yesterday..........i was gonna end it...........*looks in his eyes*.......i was gonna jump off the hollywood sign......*looks away* i was so close...I couldn't stand you or anybody else mad at me

He put his head on his arm and closed his eyes,

August: you promised me something..........promised ta never try ta kill ya self again.......because i cant see life without you being in it

Me: i couldnt take it anymore..........this is to much

August: but im here

Me: august sometimes your no help,.......half of the times it you....

August:.........we got two kids.........what do you think they reaction would be if they found out their mother jumped, hundreds of feet off the ground

Me: they'd be tramatized

August: what would you yhink id do

Me: start using again

August: things happen for a reason......im not trying to sound like an asswhole but its true............alexis isnt here with us because at that time you were not ready to have a child......da babey dat chu just lost isnt still in ya stomach because it honestly wasnt meant to be, nd you nd i both know dat

Me:...................i started feeling like the world was crashing down on my head....*crying* it feels like im going crazy, like no one sees the hurt behind my smile.....august you dont even see it

August: i see it all da time........everyday...........but kay you have ta let me help you, you push me away.......let me talk to you without you slappin me or sum shit.........stop crying

He pulled me to him, as i cried, hard covering my face

Me: ...........................help me*crying*

August:i am

I cried harder........hopefully things go well, because i admit it...i do need help

Me: im sorry...........*cry* im so so sorry *crying*

He held me for hours, untill i fell asleep again comfortable and relaxed

Kalani's P.O.V

I walked down the hall and saw zire and his squad.....i walked down the stairs trying not to be seened