I wish that you could smile like that when you're around me
at ease and carefree
But I know all you can see is the guilt
and pain that you put there
I wish you knew what it's like
to know I'm not someone who
can make you happy anymore
The space you occupied is empty
and I don't wish to fill it
I can't believe that seeing that smile
again
was possible
It feels like a lifetime since I had
The distance grows larger by the day
the words I try don't seem right
And a chasm is echoing in my chest
a numbness filters through my body
I am far away
in agony
I want to be right here
in this moment in time
where it feels right
to smile and wave at you
and you look at me
like you used to
But again I am disappointed
that you don't spare a glance
my way
Time has passed
Things have changed
A part of me longs to hug you
to cherish you
but the person I love
doesn't exist
The days feel miserable
insufferable
agonizing
because the one I love isn't here
the person who I could depend on
the person I trust
is gone
I am suffering in silence
wondering why I continue
to wait
to hope
Watching from afar
takes me back to the time
your smile gave me hope
And I again remember
what it was like
to fall in love
With you
all over again.
~L
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Living In The Mind's Cage
PoetryThe poems start inexperienced, I was younger then. As you read further it shows my growth as a person and my fallbacks. Maturing slowly through each one. It's my mental journey. These are poems are my outlet and help me with my issues when I can't d...
