Living In The Mind's Cage

56.

I just need everything stop

Life is going by and I haven't done a thing

Everything is overwhelming even when nothing is happening

I just need it to stop

I need to just lie on my bed for days

And just stare at the ceiling with silence

But my head is exploding and my heart is pounding

And my thoughts won't let up

I just need everything to stop

I need the world to stop turning for a while

While I figure it out again

But it won't

And life continues

I'm aging when I didn't get the chance to be a kid in a shitty situation

I'm aging and more responsibilities are coming

And I'm not ready for anything

I didn't prepare my future

I didn't think I'd be this far

I'm scared of what's to come and I'm not motivated for it

I just need it to stop

 Please make it stop

I don't know how to, just, be, anymore

I can't function

I can't do it anymore

Please just make it stop

Everything is changing

And only my name is still uttered on the same lips

But I can't keep up

I can't keep going

I'm lost behind in a past that doesn't want me

A future that pressures me

While my present suffocates me

I don't know what to do or how to start anymore

I'm jumpy and tired at the most smallest things

But I can't sleep

I can lie here and stare at my ceiling each night

But time still goes by

And another day starts again

I can't

Please

Make it stop

I need it all to stop

It won't

And so I drown

A/N: It's been a while...sorry guys. It will probably be that way for a while. As you can see my writing isn't that great here, I'm trying to get back into writing on here again, instead of binging books. Anyways, try not to give up on me guys, you're support is greatly needed. I'm just in a bad space and it reflects into my escape (here). I have been writing things out but nothing seems good enough to put on here. I hope you can forgive me disappearing for almost a month.
Until then.

~~RDP~~