Living In The Mind's Cage

32.

As I map these lines right on my skin,
Does this mean the demons win?

Will these reminders cleanse my unwavering blemished soul?
Will they finally accept my getting rid of my sins,
For new unappreciated ones that assumes their role?

These lines stain red,
As they take hold of my sickly flourished head,
The slight sting, that fuels my unfulfilled desires,
Will these be enough for these thoughts that transpire?

As they pulse, seeming as if they sense my staring,
My demons sense my no longer benevolent caring,
Do they take pride in the ones that have since turned white?
From the time and the festering of emotional wounds, did it somehow feed their plight?

They stare dauntingly back at me, as if wondering when I'll slip,
Because all it could take is one little rip,
It wanted me it's slave,
It wanted it me to be the one depraved,

It's easier killing off the ones already weak and wounded,
But it's harder to unconvince the ones who so blindly chose it,

They have their wills, yet they can stare longingly, unforgettably, at those pills,
They can stare at the things that make a simpler sense,
Instead of sorting through the foreboding thoughts that are so dense,
But even then relieving and reliving the pain each day keeps getting more immense,

These words may confuse you, or seemingly trying to ruse you,
But make no mistake,
These are the words that can't be made, for the loving ones sake,

These words can't be simplified, no matter how much we try,
You will more than likely ask us the neverending question why?
Don't be fooled at the pretty little words,
Because if your were actually listening, you would've most certainly heard,

If you don't understand, don't think too hard,
Because somewhere deep inside you still know who we are,

These words can't be rectified,

Doing so, would be completely lied,

Because the ones who struggled or still struggles, can't if we tried.

A/N: So it looks like I'm getting my motivation back, Slowly, but surely. This one is definitely more wordy, but that's what came to mind and I didn't want to change any of it, unless it didn't make sense. Anyway so yea 3 days in a row of updates, aren't I nice? No I'm still a horrible person for leaving readers hanging for weeks without a single message saying at least hopefully soon, left you guys in the dark. So tsk tsk tsk on me, I'll have to be better with that in the future. Once again I didn't really look for errors so tell me of any. I keep forgetting to mention this every time because I know certain people get all huffy and puffy about images being stolen, none, I repeat, none of these pics are mine, I get them from Google and put them together, I'm not claiming them either, I should really start putting that here every time I have images. Anyway tell me what you think in the comments, vote, I really appreciate it. Hopefully this streak of motivation stays with me, so I can start to have some form of normalcy and rhythm with writing. I don't say this enough, or let alone at all, but I am here for people who might get triggered from these if they erupt feelings from my words. That wasn't my intention, I just want to show people that you can sort of tell your feelings, even when you don't exactly know them yourself. You can always try and it will always appreciated whether it's said aloud or not. Talk to me if you just want to talk, I don't talk to people much myself so it's kinda nice. I write to express myself without verbally doing it, because I don't exactly know how either, and that's okay, I've accepted that. I sometimes vent, or a stream of words hits me and I want to write it out and it turns into a poem. This started out as fun or a venting system but it's turned into something more apart of me so it's very unique to have something mean a lot to me. Wow this is a long author's note so I'm gonna cut it off, but remember to tell me you guys's thoughts, vote, talk to me tell me of errors *shrugs* anything really, you could be random and it could make my day, I make weird noises and my family looks at me weird so I seriously doubt anything would phase me, except for making me laugh or smile of course. But I guess I'll try to update at least once more this week.
Until then.

~~RDP~~