Living In The Mind's Cage

48.

I'm ready to see the light,
Cause the dark left me blind,

I'm ready to leave the unrecognizable girl behind,

I'm ready to give a piece of my mind,
To the ones who left me, in the deepest of binds,

I'm ready for judgment, for judgement is due,
I no longer wish to be with you,

I'm ready for days spent with friends,
I wish to no longer rely on darkness that "mends",

I'm ready for days spent without fear,
Not really caring what people say, or what I hear,

I'm ready for days of trying,
No more half truths, it's still lying,

I'm ready for days,
With the blinding sunlight rays,

I'm ready to let go of the night,
The night that held me dearly, when I couldn't fight,

I'm ready to let go of my solitude,
Comebacks and things I say, that come out rude,

I'm ready to give affection a chance,
That type of warmth was hard to give up at first glance,

I'm ready for love, not romance,
The boys can't keep up, with my dance,

I'm ready for happiness, the kind that gives a smile,
Knowing full well, it will only last a while,

I'm ready to be glad that a new day begins,
Instead of succumbing every night, to something that will always win,

I'm ready to shed my rotting skin,
The one that held life, but died from where it's been,

I'm ready to have, a reason to dream,
Than telling myself, that I won't make it upstream,

I'm ready for the little things,
They get overlooked, just like my old being,

I'm ready to open the door,
It's insanity to keep laying on the floor,

I'm ready to leave this room of thoughts,
It gave me ideas, and look what that brought,

I'm ready to leave this room of hell,
I'm so sick and tired of saying oh well,

I'm ready to leave this room, I constantly dwell,
Although it'd be more proper, to call it a cell,

It held me here for far to long,
Luring me, with its enticing song,

I need to go where I belong,
Staying here, would only prolong,

I'm ready to start over again,
I'm broken, I'm not going to pretend,

Not anymore,
I need to learn what to live for,

It's been a while, since I've wanted change,
This foreign feeling is so strange,

A loyal dog, of hope by my side,
Shrunk for a while, and continued to hide,

Now that my mindset, seems to be conflicted,
This dog grows once more, while my brain becomes rifted,

I'm ready, finally, I'm ready,
I promise, I'll try, to stay steady,

But promises break,
And these mistakes that I make,

Keep repeating,
I normally just lay down and take the beating,

When my voice changes, and I'm able to speak,
Hopefully I'll be able to voice the answers I seek,

If I one day, give you my word,
It's meant to be kept, I hope that you've heard,

I'll one day burst out of my feathers, and fly to new heights of an unchained bird.

I'll come out of the char and ash of the fight,
And I'll leave the place with the night chained to my right.

A/N: Ooo a long one, it's been a few days since I last updated. I'm doing pretty good with that recently, although I should probably be focusing on other things... Oh well. I'll try to upload some pics for the other (sorta) recent poems, including this one, I'm not sure when though. But it's late where I'm at, I can't sleep, it's currently 2 AM and it's technically Christmas Eve. I hope readers have a Merry Christmas or Happy Christmas if you prefer that, or even Happy Hanukkah. If there's other religions with other sayings on here reading, I'll just say, Happy Holidays 😊. Vote, comment what you think, hopefully I'll update again soon but.
Until then.

~~RDP~~