Living In The Mind's Cage

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A/N: Once again read at your own risk there's one more that's pretty dark, and I'm not sure what I'll do for the next update which won't be for a while. Please don't read if this affects you, and if you do anyway and get triggered please message me, I am here, I don't want my readers to feel bad. Continue if you so choose.

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What kind of monster would I be?
If I were to let all of them free?

Would you really see me?

Would you really let go of my flaws?
Even though I was the root cause?

Would you find it in your heart?
To lay me down, and tear me apart?

For I wish for the pain,
You ask, what do I gain?

Nothing.
Nothing. I suppose..,

For I want to be shredded, once, more,
Would you give me what, I live for?

Would you sacrifice, all of your senses?
Just because, I slipped all, through my defences,

Oh, does it matter now?
Can I be forgiven somehow?

Cause these days are the same,
They will forever be unnamed,
Because...

I wish not to remember,
What happened last December,

And that spark that left me,

Oh, iridescent me?
Where did you flee?

Is it because, all you see, is tragedy?
For do you see, yourself as another casualty?

I can't stand you in agony,
As you lay there, so casually,

Tracing patterns, oh so absently,
Are you done, thinking, so rationally?

Do you think we'll live so happily?
Is that such a twisted fantasy?

What you've done, can't be randomly,
But as that color continues rapidly,

Was this really such a travesty?
Or am I kidding myself, so tragically,

Why couldn't you see, your beauty?
Why couldn't you see, you meant everything?

I know you saw in the mirror, such fallacy,
But did you think I would run, from something less monster than me?

Because the true villan here, couldn't have been less than,
Me,

So as you wake, everyday, just know I wish I could stay,
Give you all of my words, and continue to say,

Will you accept my love as enough?
And be strong, for you and me everyday,

For you can't understand, why I would want it to be this way,
And I can't explain,
Because through it all, I succumbed to the pain,

I want you to, selfishly, live on,
Even though I'm the one in the wrong,

But as you listen to our songs,
Just know I'm laying next to you, singing along.