Living In The Mind's Cage

24.

Of all the things I wish not to bear,
Would be outright knowing you do not care,
For it would hurt, knowing what has been lost,
Knowing the final line that was drawn, has been crossed,
Even thinking it brings a pain of no other,
Because I can't see things anymore without us together,
You've always been there, even when you don't speak for so long,
You're words always help me prove myself wrong,
You give me a place where I feel I belong,
We carry the weight, no matter how strong,
I sometimes wonder how we keep moving along,

But this path of life we are moving on,
Doesn't seem as what we believed,
As children, we so ignorantly percieved,
Now you sit there, with that face,
I sometimes wonder if we are being chased,

By the same demon that keeps our pace,
But even as we go along, I still with mine, decieve,
I guess there might be nothing left to retrieve,
It was my choice to hide my pain,
Slowing letting it out through the rain,
I sometimes wonder if you do it too,

To help ourselves, go what we've been through,
But still we sit in this silence that seems almost deafening,
Meanwhile silently our thoughts are beckoning,
Least they are starting to fade away,
But only to be stronger the next day,
Doesn't matter what we say,
That we tell ourselves, we have each other, but,
I sometimes wonder, if it still cuts,

I wonder if you're going in this neverending cycle again,
And I figure you are, but we're so close my friend,
We're probably going down the same path,
And the price to pay has a certain wrath,
We go the same way, yet alone,
I sometimes wonder if we'll ever get home,

We struggle and struggle, and I think is it enough?
When will this thing call its bluff?
These last few years have been a bit rough,
You've cracked under the pressure already,
Now it's my turn to be so unsteady,
But I'm not ready,
I can't, not yet,
I have to do something I'll probably regret,
You may not like it, and wish me to stop,
But it's enough to make your heart drop,
It's not what you're thinking, maybe even worse,
For what it was worth,
I let myself be cursed,
And for that later ill most likely burst,
But everyone else comes first,
Myself, I coerced
You'd probably do the same if roles were reversed
I set it that way,
At the end of this, I'm not sure if I'll make it through the day,
But much to your dismay, I won't be so easily swayed,
I sometimes wonder how it'd be if they stayed,

Yours and mine,
That's why we are so intertwined,
We understand too well,
So it's hard to ring that final bell,
When everything goes to hell,
I sometimes wonder what would happen if we tell,

We see each other's secrets,
Would we be lost in each others weakness?
All in a sequence, after all of the bleakness,
We have shared,
I sometimes wonder why we keep it so long,

Were we trying to prolong,
The inevitable?
Even though it would always be memorable,
So many things, so little words,
That could describe these feelings,
But to others, it would probably send them reeling,
So, I'm glad we're still here,
Even though the fog hasn't even cleared,
I sometimes wonder where and who we would be, if for once, someone appeared.
Instead of doing what we fear and always,

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A/N: Double updated yesterday & one today, which probably won't happen again, I guess I've been in the mood, for now. Anyway tell me what you think, errors, I appreciate it. I do like comments it's a little booster of motivation, you dont have to, (but I do like reading your thoughts). The pic is an edit I put together, by three pics on google. I'll try to update next week.
Until then.

~~RDP~~