Living In The Mind's Cage

52.

Darkness will hear my pleas,
Whilst I am sitting here on my knees,

Darkness will hear my cries,
But they will never question what dies,

Darkness will stay by my side,
As I go into myself deeper and deeper to continue to hide,

Darkness has been a friend,
And it will greet me at the end,

Darkness will comfort my cold body in the night,
It's more comforting than people in daylight,

Darkness has been a constant,
In this ever changing, ever growing life I lead,

Darkness keeps me away from my needs,

Darkness keeps me away from the light,

Darkness keeps me away from everything, so I'm alright,

Darkness keeps me content, in the nothing of silence,

Darkness keeps my hidden, so there won't be any violence,

But violence is the thoughts that cloud my judgment,

It's the darkness that keeps me in the rings of befuddlement,

Darkness whispers comforting lies,

Darkness leads me closer to my demise,

Darkness says things that couldn't be true,

But what if they are? What should I do?

Darkness you've been there through thick and thin,
But you've been telling me to do things that is nothing but sin,
If I do them, you will win,

I can't let that happen, no, not again,

Darkness overruled practical things,
Waking up early to the bird that sings,

Waking up at all, and doing something with feeling,
Body heavy, everything dull, I wish I could feel my senses reeling,

Getting ready to start the day, looking in the mirror, can't say I'm fine,
But I can't muster the strength to even brush in a line,

I can't pick up anything without lethargy in my moves,
To feel so tired, it's not something I choose,

Irritated that I have to talk, in any sort of mood,
No matter the air of things, I always come about rude,

Little things that everyone else can do,
Why shouldn't I be able to do it too?

It's part of life something that is a given,
But it's just so hard to keep on livin',

Darkness can you back off a little? Maybe for a while,
Needing to be able to anything at all, at this rate walking through life, I wouldn't last a mile,

I'm not a clumsy person but I can feel when I'll fall,
It won't be physical as if bashing through a wall,

Although it will feel like it, when I finally conclude,
Darkness I'm sorry but I've never needed you.

A/N: Hey readers so I mustered up something for you guys, it's not that good, but here you go. I haven't been on here in ages and sadly I can't yet do regular updates but it's not from school this time, I'm losing motivation for this book. I've wanted to keep writing until I'm an adult because it shows how I've grown as a person even though this book hasn't been here that long it's shown a journey, and I hope it doesn't stop. I can't think that great for this, I guess another writers block, with personal issues thrown on top of it. I really hope I can get out of this funk soon so I can come back to my senses and get connected with my poetry again. But I might take a break from writing this story, for a while, I've been updating my other book, Last Chance. I have the plot figured out for it and I've been more into that lately, it would mean a lot if some of you checked it out, bare with it, the first 5 chapters aren't that great because I wrote them years ago and didn't edit them. I edited them recently but I didn't really do much, from the chapter called "Tape" it is much more mature and looks much better than the old ones. That being because I wrote that chapter recently, along with all the other chapters afterwards. It's a Mystery/thriller and many people most likely hate me for all the cliff hangers but I assure you I'm very proud of how it's going. I try not to do cliff hangers but they just happen. Anyway check it out if you're into mystery type books, it looks like romance at first but it gets better.
Hopefully I'll be back soon for this book a few of you are loyal to this book and really enjoy my poetry and I thank you very much. I'm trying to feel better for you guys, and so this book can continue once more.
Until then.

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