Living In The Mind's Cage

25.

Your pain, is now mine,
I can now fully see it in your eyes,
Of all the things, I was actually blind,
Sometimes I wish I could rewind,
I was speechless, when you needed the words,
I was a coward when you didn't want to fight,
So how do I have any right?
I thought we could relate,
But I can see now, we can never have a clean slate,
You have a wound much deeper than I could've imagined,

I, for once have nothing that could possibly help,
I, for once have nothing to offer,

I, for once don't understand,
I, for once can never think about being selfish ever again,

I, for once haven't a slightest clue,
I, for once won't ever think I'm worse off,

I, for once have to let go,
I, for once can't see what's on the other side,

I, for once cannot hide,
I, for once should stop,

I, for once can't be molded into someone you need,
I, for once don't know what I should be,

So many things that can happen,
And yet I never could imagine,
For I thought you were lost,
But it seems you've been swallowed in darkness this entire time,
For once I cannot rhyme,
The words are stopping,
I cannot think,
I just realized I haven't blinked,
Face swollen from shed tears that have never been,
Throat closed long since then,
Body is leaving me, when I need it to work,
Mouth cannot move to form the words,
I cannot express how sorry I am, for how silent I was,
I guess, stupid is, as stupid does,

When I did speak you became silent,
And countered with things that could never be true,
I just wish I could properly be there for you,
Eyes are now opened,
To see why,
I didn't know,
Not a thing,
I sort of know why, you didn't ring,
I always knew there was always something else,
I always knew there would be more grief,
I always knew you were hiding from me,
But I guess I wasn't ready to see,

This thing you've had all along,
Why didn't I see it, for so long?
I can read most, oh so well,
But when it comes to me and your personal hell,

I am,
Astounded.

A/N: So I know I didn't rhyme practically at all this time, but I just let it go. I guess I got writers block, so maybe that's why it's not as good. But I'm sharing this anyway, because I've been trying new things as you've seen. I'll try to update again sometimes this week but, I honestly don't know, things have been crazy again. Let me know what you think, errors, ideas for a poem so I can dedicate it to you. I know it's shorter but honestly I just wanted to leave it off there, and it was taking me way too long to write this. I might take this one off later and edit it, to make it a little better, because I'm not exactly happy with it. I italicized I, you and we, because I never specify so much usually, because I want to make it so it relates to readers more, but it just wasn't working the I's seemed more fitting. And the other words were bolded or italicized because..well you can interpet it however....
But until then.

~~RDP~~